We lay in bed, room 518, drinking Chilean wine out of the plastic cups from the Best Western's bathroom, not watching the mountain biking droning on the TV. Staring at it. Are you still writing? he asked. Not lately. Drawing? No. Are you still involved with OCAP? Not for a couple of years now. Been to any shows lately? No. Still taking photograpy ( Read more... )

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my life is sad. my horse is not. he is old, cranky and noone likes him. i'm partboarding a different horse. i won't fight it. i'm going back to him.

desperate.need.of.holiday ( Read more... )

The mare was a superstar on saturday. Things are finally starting to come together for us. She is wraping herself around my legs, bending and bringing her head down, moving forward and melting at the mouth. I am not frustrated. We are beginning to trust each other ( Read more... )

last night was a thai in bed night, there was no thai, but all the other elements were there. i needed it. i've missed the boys. we laughed, i vented ( Read more... )

jump. scream. disturb the neighbours. just live your life with meaning, be passionate about -something ( Read more... )

She asked me what I thought about jumping with no reigns, I had suggested it for another rider. I thought for a minute, and said I'd do it. She noticed my lack of enthusiasm and questioned it. I thought, scratched his neck, and said- "I'll do it because I love him. I don't trust him, but I love him ( Read more... )

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nothing sustains like regret

me, i can't even admit to it

I've been avoiding writing this for a while. By writing this, I am acknowledging it's over. I am not acknowledging it is over ( Read more... )

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off to peru.

bye.