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[niroc]

Alrightie then, internet for a limited amount of time. Mum's being really difficult about obtaining it, so I'm stuck at the library typing all my stuff.

I applied for three jobs at Maersk on Friday, they promised to get back to me 'at the beginning of next week' aka anywhere before today. I'm feeling slightly disappointed. Again. Yes I have the job

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[industrellect]

I'm dabbling into sixth sense stuff as well, I'll elaborate one day or the next. I don't think that it's very wise to start making decisions or living on a prediction or a past-life reading or anything else

[niroc]

*sigh* I know. I'm just so damn scared of being a single mum. I mean, I'm barely starting to accept the fact that I'll have kids in the first place. What am I supposed to do with THREE kids?

I'm just lonely and hooking up with this guy would hit two flies with one stone, 's all. I'll get over it.

[industrellect]

Doing things based on negative emotions never turns out well.

And nothing tells you you need to have three kids. If you don't want to, don't force yourself to believe in something that someone told you based on a sixth sense. For all you know, you could die in a car crash in two months or so. I know it's tempting to go with sixth senses because "fate" takes responsibility away from yourself. If it makes you unhappy, shove it.
Plus, you can hook up with the guy without having kids. :p

Besides, those "angels" around you could just as much be remnants from a previous life that haunt you or beings trying to get a message to you. That person who made the prediction could be wrong about what exactly it is.

[niroc]

Yup yup, I know. And hooking up with the guy will take awhile, since he's busy and I'm still in limbo in what I want from him exactly (we talked about him briefly last time, remember?)

And "angels" is a term he only uses for kids, so he can't be mistaken on that. But he also insists the future is fluid, so we'll see where all this goes.

[iriacynthe]

Meiske toch. Ok, stap voor stap

[iriacynthe]

Oh, trouwens, nog één ding: als er iemand is die ik in staat zie om het als single mum op alle vlakken prima te redden, dan zijt gij het wel. Moest het ooit zo ver komen.

[niroc]

- jobgewijs is alles weer wat moeilijker, gezien ik nog altijd niks van Maersk heb gehoord. Moet seffens het nummer van Scania nog opzoeken, dan kan ik maandag eens horen of ze terug is uit verlof.
- Freaky stuff: ik weet, ik ben gewoon een raar geval soms.
- Fatso misschien niet, maar ik zit gewoon even minder in mijn vel. Maar ik laat mijn beeld dan ook weer bepalen door het beeld van anderen. En altijd de verkeerde, natuurlijk.

En single mum, ik weet dat ik het kan, maar ik wil het niet moeten. (volge wie volge kan)

[iriacynthe]

Meis toch.
*dikke knuffel*

[winifred]

Something to consider: A lot can change between now and 30. If the premonition were to come true you would be a lot more capable to handle such a situation than if it happened now. For all you know, that could be what you want at the time. I never wanted to be a single parent either, but as time goes on I realize I'm strong enough to do it if I have to.

If it worries you so much, place your focus elsewhere. Use this premonition to fine-tune your approach to relationships. If you want children at all, the discussion of whether or not a partner feels the same will become a requirement when things turn serious.

[niroc]

Very true. I just know that I like these kind of disaster-men when it comes to kids etc. I should change the kind of man I fall for and not panic. (Or at least try not to panic)