dreams & brain

[nisha_phi]

last night i had the most WTF dream of my life. I was in a threesome w/ Loki and a horse???? also i had a huge dick and was plowing Loki's hermaphrodite vagina, loki was fingering my ass, and somewhere there was a giant horse cock and handjobs?? WTFU why did my subconscious decide to have this dream, like WHAT. well i got to do loki that is pretty

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[nisha_phi]

i was like that all of high school and middle school and university, up until i started venlafaxine, ie, last september. which that is why i worry, because what if that is it and im back like that the rest of my life? i dont know how to do what i normally do, or what i do while healthy, because the entire way i think and experience things is different. what i do this way does not cut it, well maybe it does by barely scraping by, but i dont want to be walking on the edge of the cliff my whole life.

UNLESS you mean now that i have reached a more normal state, month+ long episodes of anxiety/depression are the norm. WELL that would be unpleasant but ok, preferable to the year+ long versions.

[nisha_phi]

OH yeah i know what you mean then. thanks, yeah, i have not given up yet

WOW ILAN how did you not think to notify doctor
this is why i need you my friend. i totally overlook the obvious course of action as usual

i need to find a non-shitty psychiatrist here >.> BUT i have investigated places for more therapy because i would like to eventually go off the meds entirely