I'm feeling much better today. I barely slept last night due to extreme conjestion, throbbing lymph nodes (especially around my hips...ew, sorry, I know) and the ever-pounding explosions that go off in one's head when a virus decides that it's time to make someone feel like shit. It's such an odd thing that nightmares occur one after another when I ( Read more... )

I'm beginning to hate everything that even alludes to the fact that I have a sexuality ( Read more... )

It felt absolutely relieving to cry. And it's about damn time. Jesus. It's been so long.

I barely slept last night. My throat hurt sovery badly and my ears began to ring. This morning was even worse. Throat not so sore, but my head was pounding. So I tried to get in contact with my aunt to sort of beg her to come tomorrow instead. But she's booked ( Read more... )

I called my mom and told her I am sick and can't see my aunt tomorrow. She still insists on coming. I'm completely stressed out over possibly not having the job I want this summer. Not being thin "enough." Not feeling wanted until YEARS later. Not being able to have a boyfriend any time soon due to this self-loathing bullshit ( Read more... )

Which, clearly, is why I never accomplish anything substantial ( Read more... )

There are somany times that I want to give up. And I do. But I can't.

I'm just exhausted by everything that weighs me down. I allow it to.

Masochist.

( Partyyyy fun. )

I bought an off-white, short-sleeved thermal with tiny brown skulls all over it.
Now we can match.

Party tonight. I can't help but feel horrible. Must.Stop.Now.

I am looking forward to seeing all of my friends, though (well, those that can make it). Wonderfulwonderful people.

the feeling is warm
you know what is home

you feel like a seed
deep in dirt, never shown

you fear what you are
curling roots up so tight

but go flower now
face toward what is bright