I haven't been on livejournal much in the past nine months or so at all, and thus haven't been around much in general for all this, so hopefully you still remember me, but.
I love you, you know? You were one of my first fandom friends, and you're clever and funny and delightful and terribly, terribly real. I told you once you were one of the bravest souls I'd ever known, and that's still true. So. Diagnoses are sometimes wonderful, because knowing what something is called can make you feel like it's okay, there's a reason that this one thing happened or you made that particular choice, you haven't just been imagining all of this all along. It's not your fault for not being able to just get over it, and you aren't a bad person. They can also be awful, because having someone tell you that this is that reason, this is why you made that choice or had something hard or painful happen can make you feel like it's just one more box to squeeze into, and you're obliged to match up to every occasionally terrifying corner of it
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Aw, bb, you're always welcome here, or in any of my online spaces :) I love you too, you've always got such a great perspective to offer and you're fun and bright and make me belly laugh even when I'm cursing your evil, enabling ways.
Or you know, you outpour all of this love and awesome and leave me kind of speechless in the face of it and all I can really say is: Thank you. I love you. Me too. I hope so.
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I love you, you know? You were one of my first fandom friends, and you're clever and funny and delightful and terribly, terribly real. I told you once you were one of the bravest souls I'd ever known, and that's still true. So. Diagnoses are sometimes wonderful, because knowing what something is called can make you feel like it's okay, there's a reason that this one thing happened or you made that particular choice, you haven't just been imagining all of this all along. It's not your fault for not being able to just get over it, and you aren't a bad person. They can also be awful, because having someone tell you that this is that reason, this is why you made that choice or had something hard or painful happen can make you feel like it's just one more box to squeeze into, and you're obliged to match up to every occasionally terrifying corner of it ( ... )
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Or you know, you outpour all of this love and awesome and leave me kind of speechless in the face of it and all I can really say is: Thank you. I love you. Me too. I hope so.
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