Living just becomes more and more of a frustrating impossibility. I just seriously have a knack at losing friends instead of gaining them. No matter what I do, now I come across as being 'pushy'. What am I supposed to do? People always have excuses why they can't spend time with me. Working, being at school, studying, being out with other ( Read more... )

I had it in the back of my mind to do a corny 'year in review' since my last birthday, even though I'm forgeting most of what happened since turning 23. Of course I'm 24 now and still finding it hard to enjoy, especially in the stagnant state I'm in. Here we go anyway ( Read more... )

So how come no one ever comes to visit me? Am I really that bad a person?

So I love how everyone is having their lives figured out, enjoying things, having fun, whatever, while I probably need a therapist for god-damn manic depression which I can't even afford and don't even have health insurance anyway, which probably won't even cover for mental healthcare. Might as well just chain me to a wall and charge admission for ( Read more... )

This is going to be short...like usual I suppose. Anyway, typing from the Comm College comp lab since I basically live here 3 days a week...8am to 8pm. Till the end of June, I am eating, sleeping, breathing, possibly vomitting nothing but abnormal psych, anatomy bio, and Spanish. That said, I still need a job for after June, some Summer plans ( Read more... )

See what I mean? I'm just self-destructing.

Why is anyone still my friend? I mean, really. Of course you don't have to deal with me every day, or every week, or month. In fact, you can just forget about me altogether. I'm not worth anything to any of you.

As you can tell, I don't even come near this Journal until I'm at wits end and don't know what else to do. Thank you for the replies. I even turned down a job today just to open up the Summertime. What's more important after all, money or sanity?

Good to know I'm missed and all. Oh, you want to feel good? You want to be happy? All you have to do is remember how much more my life is fucked up than yours. I only lost my job last month, am still at home, lost another friend, and basically have no one to turn to anymore. But hey, why even care what's wrong with me. You all are on your ( Read more... )

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