what to talk about...you know i was talking today, i feel like i'm still worrying too much. you ever notice how that's what i'm really really bad at? and all i ever talk about in my journal...haha...new thought. let's not worry for at least a few minutes ( Read more... )

once again...i should be asleep right now...not sure what i've got to say. just felt like a short post. right now i'm sitting here listening to some piano music...and god the piano can be just so beautiful at times...there really is just something about music and melody ( Read more... )

wow...it's five in the morning....

was just reading the past entry...

"worried as fuck..." doesn't that phrase just sounds kinda funny? haha...yeah when something is as fuck that's pretty extreme. even though that doesn't quite make sense. haha...oh well...

too bad i can't quite laugh away the worry though.

sigh...am i not supposed to look back?

i really should be working right now....i'm sorry that i'm not, but i dunno...it feels like i have something on my mind. just like....where did it get complicated? things used to be pretty damn simple now that i look back at it. and now i suppose it's finally gotten to settling back down. but i dunno...it can't ever reach that simplicity again. ( Read more... )

well....i don't know. lots to say. good things been going on. god state was great. a lot of fun, probably one of the best experiences in high school. not sure if much can top it. the rush from performing in the dome. the utter silence...it was great. i had a lot of fun with the band too. ever since then things have been a little slow. the last game ( Read more... )

hmmm...today's the 25th...that actually caught me off guard first time i wrote down the date today...wonder if that happened to anyone else

we did it...

well here we are in prep and force one i have the energy to stay awake. part of it is because i've been sick thse past two days so i've gotten lots of rest. being sick sucked kinda. wasn't too bad. but geez....so much to talk about, been so long since i've posted ( Read more... )

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