Fuck.
I feel like such an ass right now. My family likes to take unexpected trips whenever my father has the time, these trips range from anywhere to the beach or to the mountains or. Of course I'm old enough that I don't exactly need to go with them (especially with school and trying to find a job and such things like that I can't really afford to just pack up and go on a drive like in my childhood) but it's my family - I just cant not go with them, you know?
But no. This time I had to be a stupid asshole and not realize that I had my minibang art duedate within the time I was gone. The fic was posted without the art. I feel so ashamed. I know that people don't actually say that anymore "ashamed" but I actually feel that way. I'm not perfect but I really do try my best to be a decent person and right now I just let someone down. I hate the guilt of letting someone down, especially like that where one was counting on me to do my job and do it promptly in a way to complement and express their work. I was taught that if someone's relying on you, you pull through no matter what. While I (obviously) don't always live up to that expectation that my parents drilled in me, I do actually try. So now I feel like such an asshole. Someone hit me please? I feel like I deserve a good whack in the face. I don't know, perhaps I'm being over-dramatic about the situation but right now all I can think about is this nice, talented person waiting at their computer for a link so they can post something that they've been working on for a long while and put a lot time and effort into and here I go and don't get to it until three days later. God, I feel like shit.
If you haven't seen it (wait I'm talking about) I have my mini!BB art in the post prior this one. I'm really not an artist but I thought I could help out the DeanCastiel BigBang with a contribution, however inexperienced it might be, so I signed up and did my best to complement a very well written fic that I really loved being able to read. It's funny because I hadn't looked at the art since I turned it in for the final draft duedate weeks ago and now when I look at it I'm realizing all these mistakes that I hadn't before. But that always happens with the things I do - I feel pretty good about it for a while and then BAM a week later I'm laughing and facepalming at all the things I didn't see before. LOLOL, WHO NEEDS ANATOMY, RITE? pfft, it's so overrated anyways. :p
Anyways. Looking back at older posts I was gleeful to find a shirtless Jensen playing soccer (football? or do you call it soccer because he's American? is that irrelevant if he's playing in Vancouver? what do Canadians call football/soccer? these are the things that plague my small mind) but I'm hearing blasphemy of people calling him chubby Whut!? Sometimes I don't understand people. To me, he just looks healthy and fit, where's this 'chunk' you speak of? :\
I'm also hearing here-&-there's of some of my lovely friends feeling ill. :C I'm so sorry bbs, I wish I could make chicken noodle soup for all of you. I give you my best to your health, for what it's worth. I HOPE YOU GET BETTER. ♥
On another note, I just rented Rockin Rolla which about 70% was because of Tom Hardy being in it (Eames from Inception) and the other 30% is because it's actually a movie I've been wanting to see for a while but never got around to it. Also I realized how rather pathetic I am when it comes to entertainment because I just can't watch things alone. I had expected my parents to watch it with be because they are the ones who who actually like Guy Ritchie (I do too...sometimes) and one of my dad's favorite movies is Snatch (which I love as well) but they are flat out refusing to watch it with me. :c It's strange but then again they did the same with Inception. My parents might ligate be possessed, guise. 8| So now I'm putting out a bulletin, because I'm a sad person like that, if anyone wants to watch it with me.
BIG TIME 8 BULLETIN:
ANYONE WHO WANTS TO WATCH ROCKIN ROLLA (A GUY RITCHIE FILM - THE DIRECTOR OF THE LATEST SHERLOCK HOLMES MOVIE - STARRING GERALD BUTLER, MARK STRONG AND TOM HARDY. AS FAR AS I CAN TELL IT'S ABOUT AN ENGLISH GANG, MIGHT GET WEIRD AT TIMES AS MOST GUY RITCHIE FILMS DO BUT THEY ARE ENTERTAINING ENOUGH) WITH ME SEND A PM MY WAY WITH WHAT TIME WOULD BE BEST FOR YOU. I'M ALREADY TOO TIRED RIGHT NOW AND AM GOING TO BED BUT I'LL LOVE TO DO THIS TOMORROW (LATE) NIGHT. I CAN'T REALLY DO THINGS IN THE AFTERNOON LIKE I USED TOO SO THIS WILL PROBABLY BE AROUND MIDNIGHT - 3:00 AM PST TIME, THAT'S BEST FOR ME (which is about 7:00 GMT I think? idk, check the world clock here).
SO SEND ME A PM IF YOU WANT TO JOIN AND I'LL REPLY WITH A LINK AND DIRECTIONS SO YOU CAN GET INTO A NEW CHATROOM THAT I CREATED IN MIBBIT AND AN EXACT START TIME. IF YOU DON'T HAVE THE MOVIE YOU CAN EITHER RENT IT OR DL IT OR I CAN FIND A MEGAVIDEO LINK FOR YOU (but you'll have to find someway to counteract the 75minute time limit on your own because I don't know how to do that) I'LL LOVE TO HAVE EVERYONE/ANYONE THERE, I'M SURE WE'LL HAVE A FUN TIME. :3
LOVE YA DARLINGS! ♥
But no. This time I had to be a stupid asshole and not realize that I had my minibang art duedate within the time I was gone. The fic was posted without the art. I feel so ashamed. I know that people don't actually say that anymore "ashamed" but I actually feel that way. I'm not perfect but I really do try my best to be a decent person and right now I just let someone down. I hate the guilt of letting someone down, especially like that where one was counting on me to do my job and do it promptly in a way to complement and express their work. I was taught that if someone's relying on you, you pull through no matter what. While I (obviously) don't always live up to that expectation that my parents drilled in me, I do actually try. So now I feel like such an asshole. Someone hit me please? I feel like I deserve a good whack in the face. I don't know, perhaps I'm being over-dramatic about the situation but right now all I can think about is this nice, talented person waiting at their computer for a link so they can post something that they've been working on for a long while and put a lot time and effort into and here I go and don't get to it until three days later. God, I feel like shit.
If you haven't seen it (wait I'm talking about) I have my mini!BB art in the post prior this one. I'm really not an artist but I thought I could help out the DeanCastiel BigBang with a contribution, however inexperienced it might be, so I signed up and did my best to complement a very well written fic that I really loved being able to read. It's funny because I hadn't looked at the art since I turned it in for the final draft duedate weeks ago and now when I look at it I'm realizing all these mistakes that I hadn't before. But that always happens with the things I do - I feel pretty good about it for a while and then BAM a week later I'm laughing and facepalming at all the things I didn't see before. LOLOL, WHO NEEDS ANATOMY, RITE? pfft, it's so overrated anyways. :p
Anyways. Looking back at older posts I was gleeful to find a shirtless Jensen playing soccer (football? or do you call it soccer because he's American? is that irrelevant if he's playing in Vancouver? what do Canadians call football/soccer? these are the things that plague my small mind) but I'm hearing blasphemy of people calling him chubby Whut!? Sometimes I don't understand people. To me, he just looks healthy and fit, where's this 'chunk' you speak of? :\
I'm also hearing here-&-there's of some of my lovely friends feeling ill. :C I'm so sorry bbs, I wish I could make chicken noodle soup for all of you. I give you my best to your health, for what it's worth. I HOPE YOU GET BETTER. ♥
On another note, I just rented Rockin Rolla which about 70% was because of Tom Hardy being in it (Eames from Inception) and the other 30% is because it's actually a movie I've been wanting to see for a while but never got around to it. Also I realized how rather pathetic I am when it comes to entertainment because I just can't watch things alone. I had expected my parents to watch it with be because they are the ones who who actually like Guy Ritchie (I do too...sometimes) and one of my dad's favorite movies is Snatch (which I love as well) but they are flat out refusing to watch it with me. :c It's strange but then again they did the same with Inception. My parents might ligate be possessed, guise. 8| So now I'm putting out a bulletin, because I'm a sad person like that, if anyone wants to watch it with me.
BIG TIME 8 BULLETIN:
ANYONE WHO WANTS TO WATCH ROCKIN ROLLA (A GUY RITCHIE FILM - THE DIRECTOR OF THE LATEST SHERLOCK HOLMES MOVIE - STARRING GERALD BUTLER, MARK STRONG AND TOM HARDY. AS FAR AS I CAN TELL IT'S ABOUT AN ENGLISH GANG, MIGHT GET WEIRD AT TIMES AS MOST GUY RITCHIE FILMS DO BUT THEY ARE ENTERTAINING ENOUGH) WITH ME SEND A PM MY WAY WITH WHAT TIME WOULD BE BEST FOR YOU. I'M ALREADY TOO TIRED RIGHT NOW AND AM GOING TO BED BUT I'LL LOVE TO DO THIS TOMORROW (LATE) NIGHT. I CAN'T REALLY DO THINGS IN THE AFTERNOON LIKE I USED TOO SO THIS WILL PROBABLY BE AROUND MIDNIGHT - 3:00 AM PST TIME, THAT'S BEST FOR ME (which is about 7:00 GMT I think? idk, check the world clock here).
SO SEND ME A PM IF YOU WANT TO JOIN AND I'LL REPLY WITH A LINK AND DIRECTIONS SO YOU CAN GET INTO A NEW CHATROOM THAT I CREATED IN MIBBIT AND AN EXACT START TIME. IF YOU DON'T HAVE THE MOVIE YOU CAN EITHER RENT IT OR DL IT OR I CAN FIND A MEGAVIDEO LINK FOR YOU (but you'll have to find someway to counteract the 75minute time limit on your own because I don't know how to do that) I'LL LOVE TO HAVE EVERYONE/ANYONE THERE, I'M SURE WE'LL HAVE A FUN TIME. :3
LOVE YA DARLINGS! ♥