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mr_angel in no_going_home

I wish I was fiction I wish I was fact

Nov 14, 2005 22:36

I couldn't help but think that I was missing something as I headed inside to see to Faith. The sense I was getting from Wesley was something different than even earlier when we'd talked just outside not that long ago. A lot had happened since then of course and I wasn't forgetting that, so maybe I was just reading too much into what might ( Read more... )

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notamistake November 16 2005, 06:17:36 UTC

As soon as Wes left I knew I had screwed up with what I said to him. I hadn't meant anything by it! He just didn't get it. How fucking scared I was to be away from him even for a second. It had been my first thought when Kakistos' pals nabbed me and I woke up. Where was Wesley? He wasn't close by and it just didn't feel right when he wasn't close by anymore. Alright fine. Maybe I was goin' all soft in my old age. After all, technically? I was like thirty something now, but I still felt like I was in my twenties. Still looked like it. The more things change the more they stayed the same but I was startin' to get it. They made us all co-dependent on eachother stuck in Limbo together all these years. Now I needed to break free. Hey, I watched Dr. Phil. I knew how it worked ( ... )

mr_angel November 21 2005, 03:31:14 UTC

Slowly, I went to sit across from Faith on the coffee table next to the couch. I watched her as she sat up. She held out her hand to me and attempted at a smile. When Wesley came outside and had told me that Faith needed help with setting her fingers, I wasn't sure how Faith would actually act once I came inside ( ... )

notamistake November 23 2005, 01:53:10 UTC

I had to bite down hard not to hiss when he snapped my fingers back into place, one right after another. Shit. That hurt, but I'd had worse and I could suck it up for now. Finally he was done and I pulled my hand back shaking it out a little bit and debating on setting my other hand myself. I could. It wasn't like I hadn't done it before but Angel was just sittin' there lookin' at me so forlornely that I just held my other hand out wordlessly so he could set that one too ( ... )

mr_angel November 28 2005, 08:37:38 UTC

Once her second hand was set, I sat back on the table and looked at her. I sat there not saying anything for a while and debated on if I should say anything at all. What was there to say? 'Sorry this was the only way I could help you and that you nearly were killed by a vampire you killed yourself close to twenty years ago?' Except I doubt the words 'I'm sorry' would go over real well.

Lifting my eyes to hers when she finally said something, I nodded. "You're welcome." Shifting around on the table, I leaned forward again and rested my arms on my knees. To be honest, I wasn't sure what I would have done if something more had happened to Faith tonight. Would I have returned to who I'd been and forget everything she'd said to me? Would there have been some part of me that would again blame myself for what had happened? I think I knew that none of what had happened tonight was my fault, but it didn't help that I wasn't able to do anything about it except set her fingers ( ... )

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