006; 考えすぎ [Private]
I can't stop thinking! It's exhausting, but I don't think I'll get any sleep tonight. I'd better not say anything, I don't want to make anyone Abe-kun anyone worry about me anymore. I think I know what I want my battery with Abe-kun to be like, and maybe even what I need from a catcher to become an ace...
... but some things just don't seem like they work for just any catcher. I mean, I might need different things from different people, and what I think I want is even more hard to decide. What do I say if the things I want from Abe-kun are different? Isn't that wrong? It's probably weird. I'm probably being selfish again. And if it's something that I want or that I need only from Abe-kun, I shouldn't say it to everyone, but just to him...
...but I don't want him to think I'm being unreasonable, or to think that I don't trust him because of some things that I think are important for batteries, because when It's Abe, things get so complicated.
... and I don't know what I need, exactly, or entirely know what I want after all. I keep thinking in circles, and second-guessing myself and I can't figure it out. It's like having no signs again!
No, it's harder than having no signs, it's like he's giving me signs, but I just don't understand them. What am I supposed to throw?