because this is life and thats how it is

[no_intentions]

On the way home today, my mom (who I think is far more superstitious than religious) pulls her umpteenth example of obscure hindu ritualism out of her ass, and demands that I must shower before I go to work, or there will be dire consequences. Because, if I don't shower after the funeral, we'll lose another loved one. I shot back, with equally

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[daullibaba]

I am very sorry for all the relayed events surrounding your uncles passing. But it is sparking some interesting thoughts for you at least. Give your mom my condolences.

[a_moth_mistaken]

but i don't know what to say. but i'm going to say things anyway.

i was first going to mention something about your move towards atheism and meditation, in a proud sort of welcome-to-the-club way, but really it's nothing to be proud of. i often find it embarrassing, and troubling, and really, believing in god would make everything a lot easier...i guess. but i think you'd do well with meditation. it's very interesting. not necessarily comforting; but it can be after a while. it was always my sister's solution to any problem, any time i asked her for advice she would tell me to go meditate. i never listened. i probably should have.

i guess the universe is neutral; whether destroying life or fostering life; still neutral; and it's our humanity that feels the cruelty or generosity of it. i have no idea but it hurts my head to think/feel about it.

it's amazing how things like this in our lives can change us and transport us from one mental place to another. i hope that you come out in a better place after all this is through. hang in