reflections

[no_no_badtouch]

I didn't like it. I didn't like that event at all.

I think it was one of ours.

[private//hackable]

I really am selfish. Selfish and stupid. As long as I can remember it was just Seimei and I. Just the two of us. We had mom and dad, but it didn't matter. It didn't matter what they did as long as Seimei was there. As long as we were safe. I didn't think anything Seimei did was weird and I didn't really think about the weird stuff he did. Brothers ... brothers were like that. Brothers slept in the same bed and took baths together. It wasn't a big deal. It wasn't like Seimei tried to touch me or something. We just did the same things that brothers normally did. He took care of me. He loved me.

Everyone says I'm weak because I won't give Seimei up. Because I won't stay away from him. Because I won't leave Soubi for Seimei. It's like I have to choose between family and Soubi. It's not right. Just because I love Soubi doesn't mean that I don't love Seimei. It's a different kind of love. Seimei is family. Seimei is the person who always took care of me and loved me. Soubi's different. Soubi ... Soubi loves me. He loves me even though I'm selfish ... he ...