see, this is where me and you differ. i knew i would never be happy without you. but you, on the otherhand, are not just happy, but better off. and i know you are. this is really killing me, its actually eating away at me. and you, well, i at least expected to speak to you by now. not talking kills me more than you screaming insanity at me. it ( Read more... )

so one may ask what have i done this weekend? well probably no one will ask because no one really cares. but oh well. you see this is what happened. last weekend i did something i totally regret. i dont even want to talk about it. well anyway. this weekend, i asked nick for a favor to get me out of this situation i got myself into last weekend. but ( Read more... )

i messed up. bad. and its not that i intentionally did it. i just didnt do what should have came first. now it feels like my whole life is falling apart, again. but this time, the one person who helped me is mad at me. i dont even feel like asking for help. i deserve what ever happens to me. and i know secrets dont make friends. ive never kept ( Read more... )

ok so for the last number of years ive been trying to convince myself and everyone else too that i was better than the people around here. that maybe id amount to more than what this place has to offer me. but lately ive realized that im just as bad as i think them to be. and its not the place thats influencing me and its not the people, its just ( Read more... )

well..today is international talk like a pirate day..it would be cool except apparently im not cool enough to talk like a pirate...meh..i knew that anyway..its just some useless information in case if anyone read this (and they're cool enough of course) they could talk like a pirate today..well real pirates talk like pirates everyday..so to make an ( Read more... )

so yes this weekend was quite stupid..i hated it..totttttally ( Read more... )

the scent of coffee still smothers my clothes
remembering that day, that night, that forever
but the company of my shadow is whom i am to go forward with
so lets go, leave everything behind
with nothing but
the scent of coffee that still smothers my clothes.

I sit on the porch and wait for the car to pull up ( Read more... )