guess that's the price, i have to pay to know that i'm alive

[no_onespecial]

well, that's that then. you couldn't even be a bad friend, nevermind a good one... you're just, nothing? just like the rest of my so called friends and their oh so "caring hearts", you don't know how to use yours properly either. but its ok, it wasn't unexpected. you're just not worth as much as i thought of you... you're not worth my heart, my

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[salemrock]

You icon names you today. Sorrow. It seems i have no words for you at all, and i can only guess that that too wasn't unexpected. No one actually does 'care'. No one truly has 'hearts'. No one is worth anything, and i say it now, not even me. You might laugh with your 'friends', you might have a have the time of your life. But there's somrhting called betryal and it always ends up brekaing you one way or another, do not let people discourage you, do not let the trials of life break you.

[no_onespecial]

don't worry, i've been through it all before, a few times. i'm getting pretty good at dealing with fake friends and betrayal of trust.

[salemrock]

Yeah, especially being enslaved by one i thought a friend. Sad people in the world.

[akiko_star]

*cuggles*

[no_onespecial]

*cuggles back* :)

[invalescopop]

I'm sorry that you're hurting. People can be complete bastards.
I just hope you can remember that it's worth trying with other people because the good times are what makes it all worthwhile.
I don't know you so these words might sound hollow, but from someone else who's hurting I really hope your heart feels better soon x

[no_onespecial]

thanks.. i think i always try, it's so disheartening though when you've tried so hard to give someone all you can, and it's still not enough. or it's not appracited. :( maybe it will just help me find the right person to share those things with though?

you're words aren't hollow at all, i think that maybe you wouldn't have said anything if you didn't care or relate in some way? and i think that you do, because reading your journal for the past months i find myself feeling much the same ways as you do.

i wish i could say things without feeling like it would all be wasted in the end though..

[ona_dot]

people suck, i'll tell you that... im nothing but nice, coodnt be mean to anyone and yet my best friends screw me over SO badly.. it sucks but what can ya do?.. just take it as a lesson and dont waste time over it.. if it happens its meant to and there's no changen that. and im sorry to hear, u seem so nice and you dont deserve crap liek that.. =/ if u need nething.. im here=)

[no_onespecial]

i dunno what that best thing to do is. posting about it on this is probably wrong.. and keeping it to myself tears me apart. i think i just want to make them hurt as much as i do. i guess that's kinda wrong too... but i've gone this far without saying much. :/

[ona_dot]

u shoodnt feel bad, you shood be able to say waht you want, if ur hurt ur hurt.. u can always talk to me.. lemme no if u have aim or something, and thats what jouirnals are for.. to help u get ur feeligns out..
and question, what was that thing u put in my journal i hope u werent talking to me cuz i have no idea what is going on

[no_onespecial]

some guy started bitching but he deleted his comments so it looks weird.

[sephirothxi]

Hope you feel better soon. *Hugs*

Unfortunately this seems to be the way all friendships go these days. People just stop caring after a while. People just suck. Especially when they claim they care more than as a friend, that tends to accelerate the process. I couldn't even post about it on LJ without starting a flame war and having to hide the entry. :\

[no_onespecial]

*hugs* it does seem that way a lot of the time. i guess it's just the way things go... i wish people would stop claiming to be my friend though if they have no intention of actually making the effort be my friend.