A letter to Alfred that will never be sent (linkdrop)
Dear Alfred,
Hey, you said I should keep in touch, and I'm not, but that doesn't really have anything to do with you so here I am, composing a letter I'll never send, so I can feel close to you.
Things are good here, school is going okay. I met a couple of my schoolmates, Lily, who's a witch and that recruited me for her project to raise awareness in the wizarding world of the usefulness of muggle devices and Freya, who's a telepath, she... I'll get back to her later.
My teachers are cool but one in particular... I think she's really kind of wonderful. She used to be an 'S', I can tell you that since this will never be mailed and as such, I won't be betraying her. I feel like I can tell her... so much; because she's been there before. We hit it off from the begginning and even though she's figured out The Secret I still trust her. She's not Kon, Kon is an easy friendship, once we got past all the hoops of me not trusting him. Lee I trust, and I'm not quite sure why, but it's not easy, except in all the ways it is. There's an understanding in her eyes when she looks at me. Like she's seen what I have and she's survived but she'd rather not see someone else go through it.
Other than Lee, I met another cape in town, though he doesn't actually wear a cape. His name is Spiderman, and it's possible that when I brushed him off, it led to something awful happening to him. I found his mask and talked things over with his girlfriend friend Freya and from there the investigation began. Lee helped me go over the forensics, and we determined he was likely in the sewers. So down we went, and after fighting off a small horde of demons (mostly Lee did the work), we managed to get him out. Freya's caring for him now. Though I can't help but wonder, if I had been more pacient, if I had extended a hand of friendship... would this have happened to him?
I went to get a library card and made friends with the Librarian, Evie, who is extremely nice and hot. I met a couple of gentleman while going for a run in the park. One of whom is the new head of Emergency medicine at Bethlehem and the other is opening a tea shop. I don't trust the blonde one, Aziriphale. He says he doesn't care if his shop makes money... altruism like that? Can't be trusted. He's working an angle somewhere, and luckily, I set it up so I can find out what.
While in the library, I met someone else. His name is Kadaj and after I crashed my bike (and how nice is it to know I won't get scolded for telling you this Alfred), I took it to he and his brother's repair shop. I kind of invited him to go to the amusement park with me and it wasn't really a date, or anything. Or... it didn't have to be if he didn't want it to. He accepted and we had a great time, playing in the dark, deserted park.
And he kissed me. I kissed him, there was kissing. And I stopped it before it got to far, it's been so long since I've even thought about... that. Steph couldn't, not after everything that had happened to her, she was more than a little gunshy. Kadaj... Kadaj makes me want to be reckless. Kissing him makes me feel like the moment before the grapnel goes taut, and it's like I'm really flying. It's like the crush of bone beneath my fists and the whir of pavement beneath my bike. He's been good about not... pushing me to hard but, I think maybe I'll do some pushing.
I asked him out again, to go stargazing totally not knowing that he'd be zomg, planning to have sex with Susan Penseive mere minutes later and he accepted, acting kind of possessive and menacing around Bruce beforehand (I'll get back to that). It was a date, a real date. So, we're kind of dating now, or something. I like the way it is and see no reason to question where it's going. Kadaj is something that's all mine, something I get to keep for myself, when everything I am has been sacrificed for the cause.
Yeah, you saw it right. Bruce is here. Not our Bruce of course, but some younger, happier version. I have a class with him and he's always smiling and flirting and... looking so happy I just want to hit him. He has of course, noticed my odd behavior around him but so far hasn't pushed it. For this I can only be thankful.
I miss you Alfred. I miss your calming presence, I'm angry a lot now, and I don't really have an outlet besides the criminals. Mostly though, I'm tired and I think I finally understand why Bruce is the wat he is. It doesn't mean I forgive him but... I understand it a lot better. I kind of wish you were going to get this, so you could know. We both know I'd never do that though.
Love,
Tim Drake
Hey, you said I should keep in touch, and I'm not, but that doesn't really have anything to do with you so here I am, composing a letter I'll never send, so I can feel close to you.
Things are good here, school is going okay. I met a couple of my schoolmates, Lily, who's a witch and that recruited me for her project to raise awareness in the wizarding world of the usefulness of muggle devices and Freya, who's a telepath, she... I'll get back to her later.
My teachers are cool but one in particular... I think she's really kind of wonderful. She used to be an 'S', I can tell you that since this will never be mailed and as such, I won't be betraying her. I feel like I can tell her... so much; because she's been there before. We hit it off from the begginning and even though she's figured out The Secret I still trust her. She's not Kon, Kon is an easy friendship, once we got past all the hoops of me not trusting him. Lee I trust, and I'm not quite sure why, but it's not easy, except in all the ways it is. There's an understanding in her eyes when she looks at me. Like she's seen what I have and she's survived but she'd rather not see someone else go through it.
Other than Lee, I met another cape in town, though he doesn't actually wear a cape. His name is Spiderman, and it's possible that when I brushed him off, it led to something awful happening to him. I found his mask and talked things over with his girlfriend friend Freya and from there the investigation began. Lee helped me go over the forensics, and we determined he was likely in the sewers. So down we went, and after fighting off a small horde of demons (mostly Lee did the work), we managed to get him out. Freya's caring for him now. Though I can't help but wonder, if I had been more pacient, if I had extended a hand of friendship... would this have happened to him?
I went to get a library card and made friends with the Librarian, Evie, who is extremely nice and hot. I met a couple of gentleman while going for a run in the park. One of whom is the new head of Emergency medicine at Bethlehem and the other is opening a tea shop. I don't trust the blonde one, Aziriphale. He says he doesn't care if his shop makes money... altruism like that? Can't be trusted. He's working an angle somewhere, and luckily, I set it up so I can find out what.
While in the library, I met someone else. His name is Kadaj and after I crashed my bike (and how nice is it to know I won't get scolded for telling you this Alfred), I took it to he and his brother's repair shop. I kind of invited him to go to the amusement park with me and it wasn't really a date, or anything. Or... it didn't have to be if he didn't want it to. He accepted and we had a great time, playing in the dark, deserted park.
And he kissed me. I kissed him, there was kissing. And I stopped it before it got to far, it's been so long since I've even thought about... that. Steph couldn't, not after everything that had happened to her, she was more than a little gunshy. Kadaj... Kadaj makes me want to be reckless. Kissing him makes me feel like the moment before the grapnel goes taut, and it's like I'm really flying. It's like the crush of bone beneath my fists and the whir of pavement beneath my bike. He's been good about not... pushing me to hard but, I think maybe I'll do some pushing.
I asked him out again, to go stargazing totally not knowing that he'd be zomg, planning to have sex with Susan Penseive mere minutes later and he accepted, acting kind of possessive and menacing around Bruce beforehand (I'll get back to that). It was a date, a real date. So, we're kind of dating now, or something. I like the way it is and see no reason to question where it's going. Kadaj is something that's all mine, something I get to keep for myself, when everything I am has been sacrificed for the cause.
Yeah, you saw it right. Bruce is here. Not our Bruce of course, but some younger, happier version. I have a class with him and he's always smiling and flirting and... looking so happy I just want to hit him. He has of course, noticed my odd behavior around him but so far hasn't pushed it. For this I can only be thankful.
I miss you Alfred. I miss your calming presence, I'm angry a lot now, and I don't really have an outlet besides the criminals. Mostly though, I'm tired and I think I finally understand why Bruce is the wat he is. It doesn't mean I forgive him but... I understand it a lot better. I kind of wish you were going to get this, so you could know. We both know I'd never do that though.
Love,
Tim Drake