im housesitting at my mama's new house, and it's pretty fuckin awesome. i love being with my dogs a lot, but it reminds me that missy's gone. also, i feel bad for leaving anakin at home but i go by there and play with him for a little while everyday. he's shrinking back into his shell though, it sucks ( Read more... )

you were braver, stronger, more courageous than i have ever been. i miss our childhood. now we're grown. now you're gone. is it ridiculous for me to be this torn up over her? don't answer, because i actually don't give a fuck. she was my family.


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i held your hand for the first time, felt heartbeats sync.
murmurs swallowed by dirty sheets
while our mouths became concrete.

we stole a huge wooden boat in my dream and sailed across the ocean. we found countries that were nothing like modern civilization. i remember walking into watching predator cats the size of a house cat attack on of their own and tear her up and you pulled me away ( Read more... )

tomorrow night, my new house, housewarming party, corner of baylen and la rua downtown ptown, around 10ish, bring us some liquor & weedzzz
call me!

lately i've been feeling my emotions run into each other like one large pile-up on the interstate. im afraid of playing games, but im afraid of being too honest too. i don't want to dive in and i don't know if i can ever just let go of myself enough to enjoy the present instead of worry about the future. knowing this about myself, it makes me feel ( Read more... )

first day back at school, had the weirdest school dream last night. it was like the campus looked like the saved by the bell campus, and everywhere i went i had sleepytime bear with me ( Read more... )

now you're a stranger to me, that's so hard to believe because you were the first to pry my heart from my sleeve and you were the last to see innocent me. now i'm fire and you're just burning. that flame won't burn out, and it singes my skin. its' color relates the weight of my sin. now my house is locked, and you'll never get in because the ( Read more... )

i never thought it would be so apparent that im growing up ( Read more... )

maybe it's the plight of teenage livelihood to be depressed. but you know what, i'm done with being a teenager. i want to be through with discounting my emotions because i don't know how to handle them. as much as i don't want to grow up, i am so ready for the understanding that my life is what i make it ( Read more... )