So the boy stayed ( Read more... )

the problem is that there is no problem to admit to yourself and without conflict
how do you evaluate the depth of the ocean without seeing both the sand and the water?
Pretend. Believe. Try.

Staring through the future, into black holes that do not exist
permit you abilities to just quit and run....oh wait.... move away ( Read more... )

He is leaving on Monday for Rhode Island.
We will be over and done with Sunday.
My heart is breaking.
I think it may already be broken.
All I could do was tell him.
And Now......
There's nothing left but distance.
And tears.
and pain.
And time that fucking bitch time that will help me move on.

It sucks the most because nothing is wrong except this is ( Read more... )

My life for the past six months plus has been, as always, *gush Gush gush* I adore my boyfriend, he is the greatest, *gush GUSH gush* but do I really tell him these things? Not so much. Typically I do joke on him about needing to be more romantic and normal. BUT I don't mean it! I don't like either of those things so much. I tell him he makes me ( Read more... )

biggest news: I GOT A CAR! It's a blue hyundai elantra 2005. I like it. I haven't named it yet.

big news: Within the next month or so, I am moving the the VA BEACH/NORFOLK area. The plans are still sketchy now, but it will all work out somehow...

cute storySo, as most of you know or may not know, I have been dating this pretty awesome guy for ( Read more... )

I got my laptop today. Mmmmmmmm! It's so tiny and delicate. I heart it mucho aloto ( Read more... )

Thinking back to last year at New Year's ---What Was I Doing ( Read more... )

Exhaaaausted ( Read more... )

My Xmas Tree will not stand up. It has fallen down twice now. Once, it fell down in a position in which TO HAVE FALLEN THAT WAY, it had to be picked up and thrown, but I was in the room asleep when it crashed. I awoke. No one. So that was nice. Maybe it's the skeleton lights. Hillary thinks it the penguin on top of the tree. whichever. creeeeeepy ( Read more... )

I really like leftover turkey day. The day when you get to heat up everything and remember just how good it is. And you can eat it on paper plates like a barbarian! Such food is made for china, but i eat it american style. (shut up i know that was corny, kiss my ass ( Read more... )