Snow, Cat Sitting, Creepy Client Munchkin
I rather like that title, great name for a band.
Okay, theres too moshe, I am putting it under a cut.
Happy Holidays!
Now, let me think.
First, maybe the cool stuff.
I am having trouble thinking chronologically of things to write down, but Ren visited from FL! She fit in very well at our apartment. We all ate a pile of popcorn together and watched Total Recall. Ren and I built a 'gingerbread' house made of graham crackers. I have never done anything like that, it was really fun and I got very into it. It is mostly eaten now. Things made of food never last around a house full of guys. We also made sugar cookies, which were the best thing ever. I made kitty head shaped ones.
Ren and I went to the Rockefeller to look at the tree and light displays, and we looked at the window displays. GO SEE BERGMAN DORF or however you spell it. Its on 5th and...59,60? ITS THE MOST AMAZING THING EVER. I drove ren crazy, i wanted to take pictures of every inch of those displays. And i most likely did. They had so much detail! And there were things like pegasus head men and wolf head men and penguin head men. We wanted to go ice skating but when we got to bryant park it had been snowing so much we couldnt! Ren had wished for snow and it hadnt snowed until she got here, then all it did was snow. I was like, wtf. The city is gorgeous swathed in snow. But not the greatest to walk in. We got a cupcake at Crumb and then went to Barnes and Noble for hot chocolate and sitting in warmth, overlooking the streets. I forget what else we did. Crimmas music. Which was a good idea, I have never been around the house on the holidays, listening to the Bing. It was a good time.
I felt, strangely, like having Ren there also brought me and the guys closer together somehow. I am getting more and more comfortable with them. Its good. They're my brothers. Big tall loud teasing me brothers. Everyone keeps doing the "open your miiiind" line from total recall with the fingers grabbing which sends me shrieking away. NOT COOL.
The guys are gone, and I am trying to clean the house. They totally left me with allll the dishes. over ten plates and assorted pots and utensils. grumble. dishes from the night g. and p. came over for steak dinner and munchkin. man that was good food. I had never played munchkin before-OMG it was FUUUUN! But i was soooo tired that I used all my cards to get a. that last point to teh win. i was just in no mood for company or games but i wanted badly to be. i was just too too tired. i cant believe its almost christmas, i havent done anything. I have a pile of christmas cards with incomplete addresses. I haven't gotten any gifts except for that stupid secret santa thing. I got a coach letter K keychain fob. Thats why i dun like participating-i dont need that stuff. bleah. Dan has already gotten me two things, and i got nothing. I have no idea what to get him. I mean, I do but. ehhh. I dont know. He has also left me three pomengranates before he left. I gave one away-it takes me days to finish one on my own. All because I brought home one of the fruits from work one night.
I get to cat sit for r. I went over to their house last night to meet him-they have a sweet ass apartment, i tell you. they have a huge flat screen tv and a crimmas tree (we do not :( )and their cat, hopper, is the chillest cat i have ever met. he has these bites on his ears that make him look so cool, from back when he was a stray. i am pretty excited, i am going to shower him with LOVE!!
the guys are all excited because the loud angry fighting neighbors upstairs might be evicted, and the landlord asked if we interested in moving there. which means we would have rooftop access, which means rooftop parties and rooftop gardens. i. would have rooftop reefer plants, hehehe. there would also be an extra bedroom? but i dunno. not holding my breath. but it could be cool.
Of course, I have been obsessing over work: the massage should really be a part-time thing, but I must be very picky about jobs, cuz massage is still all I am doing. I got all tangled up this month trying to extricate myself from one gym location, it totally got out of hand. I see my boss's position, but she is really...she is difficult, somehow. She is one of those people that you cant talk directly to, because she'll give you back vague sentences with phrases like "we will play it by ear" when you say things like "This is my two weeks notice", and keeps describing herself as being very hard edge and tough, but whenever I talk to her, I sort of...feel sorry for her. Somehow I kept getting the sense that she is insecure and she sounded defensive. She said weird things and I wondered if she was being passive aggressive with a professional veneer so I couldn't take offense. I just didn't want any drama, I was very direct and said that I didnt want to work too much-cuz its not about her or the work, i just want to change this to part time. Sigh. It was bothering me all month cuz i was supposed to be done weeks ago, and she just. made it complicated. for no good reason. she had 'a talk' with me yesterday which i was just dreading cuz she sent me this email letting me know that she had told everyone about this whole thing so i was all on edge...er, run on sentence. The point is, i dislike the idea of a talk with so much drama surrounding it, and i have been so professional and nice and accomodating (cuz i put a lot of thought into it beforehand)and she totally said awful things to me. i wondered vaguely afterward if i should feel offended or hurt, but then i was like, why? she shouldnt take it personally, so i wont take her reaction personally. i just smiled at her for the rest of the night and said i hoped she felt better cuz she was sick too, on top of it all. so much pressure. i certainly dont have any drama at the other gym. the bosses there even talked to her and told me that she was weird and apparently, she did something similar with another therapist in the past. so whatever, i will be done by next week and will wash my hands of it. Why have bad feelings?
Oh yeah! So i had a creepy client the other night. And sometimes theyre creepy, very rarely tho, but this one takes the cake. He was someone i had worked with before. And maybe this is just a sign that compounds the point that this should be part time, and not at this gym location. So anyway, he comes in, and I say "Hey good to see you again", and he has only a towel around his waist versus the bathrobe they usually get. He comes in and hugs me and kisses me on the cheek. Thats weird to me but whatever. Its a greeting. So I come in and during the whole massage, he is talking to me, thats fine. First he asked, where do you live? thats normal, lots of people ask. and wanted to know if he could see me there. It was just the way he asked it. I just laughed it off, you know, i would never ask a private client to come allll the way to the bronx. What was I doing for the holidays? Normal, too. Nothing, I said and he said, oh then we can have dinner, then, he said. Uhhhhhh, went my brain. What else. He talked about my being fit and having seen me work out. He talked about my glasses and wondered why I didn't wear contacts, he got my card (that we all send to past clients thanking them for coming by) blahblahblah. I kept trying to bring it back to him, and the work, like you know, "oh this seems tight this must be from sitting in a chair for too long"...I don't know, I just felt uncomfortable. You get vibes from people, I am pretty sure besides my hands becoming more strong and sensitive my other perceptive senses have sharpened. I notice a lot more about people because I see so many in my work. I know things. Its pretty cool. i was worried about him turning over, you know. Would he grab me or errr. Therapists have told stories. i was worried, but he just mostly looked at me as we talked and then, nearly giving me a heart attack, whispered near the end, "i wanted to ask you....would you do my toes?" OF COURSE! Anything to be out of your line of sight and hands! I was also worried that after i left and came back to clean the table that he might still be there, but he wasn't. I think he is just lonely and works too much and doesnt get enough attention.
I guess now I have creepy client stories too. Like that one chick who said she wanted to tie me to her bed. It was supposed to be a compliment, i think. And that time we caught that couple having sex after the massage. Oh yes, such memories.
I am thinking I might go to FIT.
But maybe I say no more about that.
I want to be a renaissance woman, the woman who can do everything.
But what I really want is to do the thing that everyone agrees that I am good at, and I can get a good paying job doing it and feel good about me doing it.
I keep wearing d's clothes. mostly just his sweaters cuz i am always cold now. I am soooo lucky to have someone who puts up with me. He is really really good to me. Its the best. ^________^
I hope everything goes well for everyone in the end.
Okay, theres too moshe, I am putting it under a cut.
Happy Holidays!
Now, let me think.
First, maybe the cool stuff.
I am having trouble thinking chronologically of things to write down, but Ren visited from FL! She fit in very well at our apartment. We all ate a pile of popcorn together and watched Total Recall. Ren and I built a 'gingerbread' house made of graham crackers. I have never done anything like that, it was really fun and I got very into it. It is mostly eaten now. Things made of food never last around a house full of guys. We also made sugar cookies, which were the best thing ever. I made kitty head shaped ones.
Ren and I went to the Rockefeller to look at the tree and light displays, and we looked at the window displays. GO SEE BERGMAN DORF or however you spell it. Its on 5th and...59,60? ITS THE MOST AMAZING THING EVER. I drove ren crazy, i wanted to take pictures of every inch of those displays. And i most likely did. They had so much detail! And there were things like pegasus head men and wolf head men and penguin head men. We wanted to go ice skating but when we got to bryant park it had been snowing so much we couldnt! Ren had wished for snow and it hadnt snowed until she got here, then all it did was snow. I was like, wtf. The city is gorgeous swathed in snow. But not the greatest to walk in. We got a cupcake at Crumb and then went to Barnes and Noble for hot chocolate and sitting in warmth, overlooking the streets. I forget what else we did. Crimmas music. Which was a good idea, I have never been around the house on the holidays, listening to the Bing. It was a good time.
I felt, strangely, like having Ren there also brought me and the guys closer together somehow. I am getting more and more comfortable with them. Its good. They're my brothers. Big tall loud teasing me brothers. Everyone keeps doing the "open your miiiind" line from total recall with the fingers grabbing which sends me shrieking away. NOT COOL.
The guys are gone, and I am trying to clean the house. They totally left me with allll the dishes. over ten plates and assorted pots and utensils. grumble. dishes from the night g. and p. came over for steak dinner and munchkin. man that was good food. I had never played munchkin before-OMG it was FUUUUN! But i was soooo tired that I used all my cards to get a. that last point to teh win. i was just in no mood for company or games but i wanted badly to be. i was just too too tired. i cant believe its almost christmas, i havent done anything. I have a pile of christmas cards with incomplete addresses. I haven't gotten any gifts except for that stupid secret santa thing. I got a coach letter K keychain fob. Thats why i dun like participating-i dont need that stuff. bleah. Dan has already gotten me two things, and i got nothing. I have no idea what to get him. I mean, I do but. ehhh. I dont know. He has also left me three pomengranates before he left. I gave one away-it takes me days to finish one on my own. All because I brought home one of the fruits from work one night.
I get to cat sit for r. I went over to their house last night to meet him-they have a sweet ass apartment, i tell you. they have a huge flat screen tv and a crimmas tree (we do not :( )and their cat, hopper, is the chillest cat i have ever met. he has these bites on his ears that make him look so cool, from back when he was a stray. i am pretty excited, i am going to shower him with LOVE!!
the guys are all excited because the loud angry fighting neighbors upstairs might be evicted, and the landlord asked if we interested in moving there. which means we would have rooftop access, which means rooftop parties and rooftop gardens. i. would have rooftop reefer plants, hehehe. there would also be an extra bedroom? but i dunno. not holding my breath. but it could be cool.
Of course, I have been obsessing over work: the massage should really be a part-time thing, but I must be very picky about jobs, cuz massage is still all I am doing. I got all tangled up this month trying to extricate myself from one gym location, it totally got out of hand. I see my boss's position, but she is really...she is difficult, somehow. She is one of those people that you cant talk directly to, because she'll give you back vague sentences with phrases like "we will play it by ear" when you say things like "This is my two weeks notice", and keeps describing herself as being very hard edge and tough, but whenever I talk to her, I sort of...feel sorry for her. Somehow I kept getting the sense that she is insecure and she sounded defensive. She said weird things and I wondered if she was being passive aggressive with a professional veneer so I couldn't take offense. I just didn't want any drama, I was very direct and said that I didnt want to work too much-cuz its not about her or the work, i just want to change this to part time. Sigh. It was bothering me all month cuz i was supposed to be done weeks ago, and she just. made it complicated. for no good reason. she had 'a talk' with me yesterday which i was just dreading cuz she sent me this email letting me know that she had told everyone about this whole thing so i was all on edge...er, run on sentence. The point is, i dislike the idea of a talk with so much drama surrounding it, and i have been so professional and nice and accomodating (cuz i put a lot of thought into it beforehand)and she totally said awful things to me. i wondered vaguely afterward if i should feel offended or hurt, but then i was like, why? she shouldnt take it personally, so i wont take her reaction personally. i just smiled at her for the rest of the night and said i hoped she felt better cuz she was sick too, on top of it all. so much pressure. i certainly dont have any drama at the other gym. the bosses there even talked to her and told me that she was weird and apparently, she did something similar with another therapist in the past. so whatever, i will be done by next week and will wash my hands of it. Why have bad feelings?
Oh yeah! So i had a creepy client the other night. And sometimes theyre creepy, very rarely tho, but this one takes the cake. He was someone i had worked with before. And maybe this is just a sign that compounds the point that this should be part time, and not at this gym location. So anyway, he comes in, and I say "Hey good to see you again", and he has only a towel around his waist versus the bathrobe they usually get. He comes in and hugs me and kisses me on the cheek. Thats weird to me but whatever. Its a greeting. So I come in and during the whole massage, he is talking to me, thats fine. First he asked, where do you live? thats normal, lots of people ask. and wanted to know if he could see me there. It was just the way he asked it. I just laughed it off, you know, i would never ask a private client to come allll the way to the bronx. What was I doing for the holidays? Normal, too. Nothing, I said and he said, oh then we can have dinner, then, he said. Uhhhhhh, went my brain. What else. He talked about my being fit and having seen me work out. He talked about my glasses and wondered why I didn't wear contacts, he got my card (that we all send to past clients thanking them for coming by) blahblahblah. I kept trying to bring it back to him, and the work, like you know, "oh this seems tight this must be from sitting in a chair for too long"...I don't know, I just felt uncomfortable. You get vibes from people, I am pretty sure besides my hands becoming more strong and sensitive my other perceptive senses have sharpened. I notice a lot more about people because I see so many in my work. I know things. Its pretty cool. i was worried about him turning over, you know. Would he grab me or errr. Therapists have told stories. i was worried, but he just mostly looked at me as we talked and then, nearly giving me a heart attack, whispered near the end, "i wanted to ask you....would you do my toes?" OF COURSE! Anything to be out of your line of sight and hands! I was also worried that after i left and came back to clean the table that he might still be there, but he wasn't. I think he is just lonely and works too much and doesnt get enough attention.
I guess now I have creepy client stories too. Like that one chick who said she wanted to tie me to her bed. It was supposed to be a compliment, i think. And that time we caught that couple having sex after the massage. Oh yes, such memories.
I am thinking I might go to FIT.
But maybe I say no more about that.
I want to be a renaissance woman, the woman who can do everything.
But what I really want is to do the thing that everyone agrees that I am good at, and I can get a good paying job doing it and feel good about me doing it.
I keep wearing d's clothes. mostly just his sweaters cuz i am always cold now. I am soooo lucky to have someone who puts up with me. He is really really good to me. Its the best. ^________^
I hope everything goes well for everyone in the end.