I finally wrote the following poem last night, and it's the first time in a while that i have, i remember it being more painful...but i also remember wishing i hadn't written at all after i was done, this one wasn't my best i guess, as always, but it made me feel good just trying to write it ( Read more... )

The Tramp Impersonating the Dictator ( Read more... )

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Not again

I've been sick for 5 days, it started off with just a sore throat and some congestion and stomach aches. Then the next day i had more congestion and severe headaches. Day 3 i had another sore throat and somehing else. the 4 and 5 i've had worsening cold symptoms. I think i've forgotten several key illnesses but it doesn't matter. i just think it's ( Read more... )

Day after day after day........

after day after day after day........

I miss my perpetual sense of being needed. I always get so depressed and lost without a true purpose. Which for me is being needed, for anything. And i always think that i'm not enough, or too much, or for either or both reasons, they drift away and i never know why. I'm sick of losing people, especailly the ones who are closest and mean the most ( Read more... )

I was about to write this big long shpeil about how miserable i am tonight, when i realized i don't presently at this moment have anything to be miserable about. Of course within the next hour or 2, or more or less who knows, ill probably be lost in thought or fantasy as usual. BUt right now......life is good ( Read more... )

I thought those nights were behind me.....

I've come to a realization that while i serve a good purpose in life, i feel i'm a dying breed in this world. And Finding someone to appreciate everything about you, to your very depths and understand and love everything there is about you. And i find that i lack any sort of understanding regarding my own life while i may be able to do wonders for ( Read more... )