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for some reason i feel like my insides have been ripped out... i do not know why... i tell someone how i feel and there goes my guts all over the table for everyone to see... i wish i wouldn't have but i did and its to late... i don't know how to get rid of this emptiness... i want to... no responce from anyone... i should be used to it... i always seem to make shit get worse before they get better! why do i do this to myself... stop analyzing everything... but no i will think about it till i cry myself to sleep! why do i always do this to myself? i don't know but i still do it time and time again! you should be used to this i tell myself... but no i am not... i expect to much think way to loud and want all the wrong things... i really need to get over this shit! i need to figure out how i feel! how do i feel? do you know? i don't! does anyone know? someone please help me!!!