(Fanfic) 手紙
Title: 手紙
Chapters: Oneshot
Author: noe_sakamoto
Genre: angst
Warnings: BoyxBoy
Rating: PG
Pairings: ToraxShou, SagaxShou (past), SagaxNao (One sided)
Synopsis: I love you, now and forever
Comments: thank you very much dear kei_kyuuketsuki because you really helped me by doing the beta thingy *kisses* XD
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I love you, now and forever
That was your last word before you left me alone. It had been five years, since I broke up with you. You already left me alone and made me cry like shit. At the first month after you broke me up, I always had nightmare. You left me without giving any explanation about it.
I was always running after your shadow. I was always trying to reach your hand. I was always keeping my memories about you. But now, everything changed.
I met him when I was 24, three years after you left me. His name is Tora. He was my senpai when I was still in high school. We met again when we were attending some meeting for our company. He’s still handsome, and become more handsome actually. He asked me to go out, and I said yes.
I need distraction.
You might think that I’m cruel because I used Tora to make me forget everything about you. I already told him, that I still could not forget you but he said that he’s fine with my condition.
He was the real gentleman. He was always treating me nicely; he was always right beside me in any condition. He was always lending me his shoulder and he hugged me when I was crying, every time I remember about you.
He made my miserable life gone. Little by little, he became the person that really important for me. And slowly, his figure was filling my brain erased yours.
I realized that I love him, more than what I feel toward you.
My love for him grew stronger. Stronger than ever; and stronger than my love for you.
My love for Tora is different from my love for you. I love him, I deeply in love with him and he has the same feeling too. We love each other, support each other and I feel like I am fulfilled.
I never got this feeling when I was with you. We only thought about our need, about our lust. But with Tora, we thought about our life, our future, and everything around us.
I want to thank you, because you taught me about love and lust at first. Although you left me like a piece of garbage, I still want to thank you.
Thank you, for being my first boy friend. Thank you, for being my first of everything.
I sent you this letter, because I did not know what to do. I also sent the invitation to my wedding. I hope you can come to my wedding party, Saga. Tora and I; want to thank you and we really want to meet you.
I can’t wait to see you at my wedding.
With love,
Shou
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Saga closed his eyes. Tears were flowing on his cheek, and he was trembling. He cried silently, and clenched his teeth. He was still grabbing Shou’s letter. He could not stop his tears.
After he left Shou five years ago, he thought that Shou would be fine. He also thought that he would be fine. But the truth was none of them were fine. But Shou made his move forward. He already got new lover and new life.
But Saga?
After his stupid decision to break up with Shou, he was still living in his miserable past. Nao looked at Saga with sad face. He still could not understand why Saga left Shou if he was still in love with him. He could not understand with Saga’s decision.
Slowly, he walked to Saga’s chair, and hugged him tight, kissed his forehead and whispered,
“Please, don’t cry anymore, Saga. I can’t see you cry. It really hurts me a lot.”
Saga only kept silent. Slowly, he patted Nao’s head and said, “This is the price that I must pay after I left Shou, Nao. I must pay this price because of my stupidity. I deserved this punishment.”
Nao cried, and he hugged Saga tightly. Saga only gave his bitter smile.
Yeah, this was right. This punishment was the price that Saga must pay. After Nao became a little bit calm, Saga caressed his cheek, and hugged him softly and said, “I will attend Shou’s wedding party. Would you come to accompany me?”
Nao nodded. He kissed Saga’s lips and hugged him again.
“I will accompany you Saga. Wherever you go, whatever you want, I will always accompany you and support you.”
Saga smiled, and hugged Nao back. He hoped that tomorrow, he would be able to attend Shou’s wedding. Deep inside his heart, Saga whispered, that he would always love Shou, now and forever as long as his heart was still beating.
Chapters: Oneshot
Author: noe_sakamoto
Genre: angst
Warnings: BoyxBoy
Rating: PG
Pairings: ToraxShou, SagaxShou (past), SagaxNao (One sided)
Synopsis: I love you, now and forever
Comments: thank you very much dear kei_kyuuketsuki because you really helped me by doing the beta thingy *kisses* XD
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I love you, now and forever
That was your last word before you left me alone. It had been five years, since I broke up with you. You already left me alone and made me cry like shit. At the first month after you broke me up, I always had nightmare. You left me without giving any explanation about it.
I was always running after your shadow. I was always trying to reach your hand. I was always keeping my memories about you. But now, everything changed.
I met him when I was 24, three years after you left me. His name is Tora. He was my senpai when I was still in high school. We met again when we were attending some meeting for our company. He’s still handsome, and become more handsome actually. He asked me to go out, and I said yes.
I need distraction.
You might think that I’m cruel because I used Tora to make me forget everything about you. I already told him, that I still could not forget you but he said that he’s fine with my condition.
He was the real gentleman. He was always treating me nicely; he was always right beside me in any condition. He was always lending me his shoulder and he hugged me when I was crying, every time I remember about you.
He made my miserable life gone. Little by little, he became the person that really important for me. And slowly, his figure was filling my brain erased yours.
I realized that I love him, more than what I feel toward you.
My love for him grew stronger. Stronger than ever; and stronger than my love for you.
My love for Tora is different from my love for you. I love him, I deeply in love with him and he has the same feeling too. We love each other, support each other and I feel like I am fulfilled.
I never got this feeling when I was with you. We only thought about our need, about our lust. But with Tora, we thought about our life, our future, and everything around us.
I want to thank you, because you taught me about love and lust at first. Although you left me like a piece of garbage, I still want to thank you.
Thank you, for being my first boy friend. Thank you, for being my first of everything.
I sent you this letter, because I did not know what to do. I also sent the invitation to my wedding. I hope you can come to my wedding party, Saga. Tora and I; want to thank you and we really want to meet you.
I can’t wait to see you at my wedding.
With love,
Shou
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Saga closed his eyes. Tears were flowing on his cheek, and he was trembling. He cried silently, and clenched his teeth. He was still grabbing Shou’s letter. He could not stop his tears.
After he left Shou five years ago, he thought that Shou would be fine. He also thought that he would be fine. But the truth was none of them were fine. But Shou made his move forward. He already got new lover and new life.
But Saga?
After his stupid decision to break up with Shou, he was still living in his miserable past. Nao looked at Saga with sad face. He still could not understand why Saga left Shou if he was still in love with him. He could not understand with Saga’s decision.
Slowly, he walked to Saga’s chair, and hugged him tight, kissed his forehead and whispered,
“Please, don’t cry anymore, Saga. I can’t see you cry. It really hurts me a lot.”
Saga only kept silent. Slowly, he patted Nao’s head and said, “This is the price that I must pay after I left Shou, Nao. I must pay this price because of my stupidity. I deserved this punishment.”
Nao cried, and he hugged Saga tightly. Saga only gave his bitter smile.
Yeah, this was right. This punishment was the price that Saga must pay. After Nao became a little bit calm, Saga caressed his cheek, and hugged him softly and said, “I will attend Shou’s wedding party. Would you come to accompany me?”
Nao nodded. He kissed Saga’s lips and hugged him again.
“I will accompany you Saga. Wherever you go, whatever you want, I will always accompany you and support you.”
Saga smiled, and hugged Nao back. He hoped that tomorrow, he would be able to attend Shou’s wedding. Deep inside his heart, Saga whispered, that he would always love Shou, now and forever as long as his heart was still beating.