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noeasyanswers

AND WHEN IT ALL FALLS DOWN

Apr 21, 2004 00:37

I can honestly say, right now, that I am disappointed in myself. More than disappointed in myself, actually. I'm sick of myself and everything that I seem to be at this given moment. Its a passing phase, I tell myself because those are the words I hand out as advice; everything will get better if you just give it time; what is meant to be will be. ( Read more... )

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mysoul2sing4evr April 20 2004, 23:35:06 UTC

Don't worry things will get easier girlie. Just take it one day at a time and just try and let your worries not build up and overwelm you cause then you will go into overload. I will pray for you. Take care and talk to you soon....Bye Bye Bye

noeasyanswers April 21 2004, 08:14:13 UTC

Thank you.

I try to take life one day at a time, but sometimes I look at the pile of things that I have to do and it becomes too much. And yeah, I am about to crash head first into overload, which isn't good, so I am hoping I can stop myself before that happens.

shazaam_am April 21 2004, 05:11:33 UTC

*hugs* Believe me when I say I have been in your position and I'm still struggling with it. Isn't it funny how you wait your whole life to get go to college and then once you're there all you want to do is go home?

And as far as picking a major goes, go with where your heart is leading your right now. You can always change it later. And if this is what God has meant for you to do, then He'll work it out for you. :)

noeasyanswers April 21 2004, 08:15:15 UTC

I always keep your words, that God will work it out for me, close to my heart because I know they are true. Sometimes its just hard to believe the words, if that makes any sense at all.

But it will work out. It has to.

sf_tlst April 21 2004, 06:25:31 UTC

Isnt it shitty when we know all the words of wisdom that should soothe our souls, yet it doesn't take away the fact that life is freaking hard? Sometimes the only thing you can do is close your eyes and let yourself soak in the love of the Holy Spirit that eminates from your family and friends and sometimes even strangers out there in the world, just letting His love flow through. Let it wash over you, take a deep breath, then open your eyes again renewed. Then as you walk around through the day, take a look at everyone else. They are all struggling with something, none of us less equipped to handle it. And if you keep looking, you might look at a few of them and go.. damn, that girl's momma never slapped her, wtf is she thinking wearing that? lol. It's a little empowering to notice and think, "well maybe I do have it together just a lil bit!" One foot in front of the other, we all make it through ( ... )

noeasyanswers April 21 2004, 08:16:28 UTC

Thank you.

Everything you wrote put a smile on my face and made me feel a million times better, instantly.

And if you keep looking, you might look at a few of them and go.. damn, that girl's momma never slapped her, wtf is she thinking wearing that?

That cracked me up because its so true and crosses my mind all too often.

jackiesue April 21 2004, 06:46:57 UTC

Its funny, too, because in high school all you can think is: I can't wait to go to college, and now that I am here all I think is: I wish I were back in high school.Oh Amen to that!! I can't tell you how many times I've wished I could go back to high school-and the drama there was at a much higher scale, trust me. After reading your post, I feel I need to let you know that you're not alone. I think I might have told ya'll this at retreat but I failed out of SFA my freshman year. Why? Because I didn't know how to study. I came from a high school where I graduated with a 3.5 and never studied at all. So when I got to SFA...I was clueless how to study. In turn, I failed out. Trust me Leslie, you have come nowhere near the epitamy of loserness till you fail out of college. SFA no less! And as for a major goes-I did not decided and declare a major until Fall 2002. I was a junior. You're gonna have plenty of time to pray and decide, trust me. I know life sucks right now and everything is just falling down on your head. But it ( ... )

noeasyanswers April 21 2004, 08:17:43 UTC

Thank you for everything, Jackie. And I do mean everything.

I am more than looking forward to tonight with chili soup and brownies and "The OC". Just the thought of all that is making this day somewhat bearable.

lilcreativebug April 21 2004, 10:59:33 UTC

*hugs* I know this is easy to say, but it's true. It *is* all going to work out in the long run. Trust me, I've been there, both in my college years and now in the working world. In fact, I'm there right now at work, feeling like I'm about to drown in all the things I've got to do. The best advice I can give you is to stop, take a deep breath, remind yourself you don't have to do it all or decide it all right this minute, and take things one at a time. I know that's also easier said then done, but it's the truth. Sometimes you just have to say, "well, doesn't this all suck?" and then roll up your sleeves and dive into it all anyway. You can't hide from it all (although, isn't that a marvelous thought sometimes *lol*) because it will still be there when you poke your head out from underneath the covers ( ... )

noeasyanswers April 22 2004, 10:25:07 UTC

I love you. I just had to say that.

You amaze me. Expect more soon.