I am obsessed with death

[noexitgirl]

I am. Every since I started to sort of get over my fear of the devil lurking behind every closet door, I've developed a really horrifying fixation on death. I can't seem to accept the fact that one I day, I will cease to exist. The past week or two, before I fall asleep at night, I find myself thinking about what it will be like to realize, when

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[saxyash]

Hmm... I am somewhat freaked out by death, but I think I would rather go into nothingness than go to hell. I suppose by the time we die (hopefully at a ripe old age) we'll be ready to go. Our body will be giving out on us after many years of a great life and lots of wonderful memories. However, I have a feeling that Andy will probably go before I do, which without him, I don't see how I could really be happy much longer. I suppose if we both lived forever, that would be ok. But knowing we won't, I find comfort that I won't have to spend forever without him.

But no, I don't think it is odd to be mad that you are going to die.

[olinkakal]

Hmm.... instead of worrying about what it would feel like to die in a few decades, how about worrying about what it feels like to find out through a journal what your wife has been thinking about for two weeks before going to sleep? Talk about "non-existence"... Lying next to your significant other, relaxed and half-asleep, thinking she is as satisfied, calm and peaceful as you are, only to find out last that all this time she has been tormented by thoughts of death that were too "insignificant" or too "significant" to share with her own wife.. I thought dying was the scariest thing that can happen to someone. Now I am not so sure anymore..