the 1st step is admitting it to yourself right? putting it in black and white in some context is hopefully the right way to go. I just got a little sense of relief from knwoing everything I typed in someway was 110% unadulterated truth. Maybe thats why catholics have confession. luckily I have some sort of journal or blog whatever the hell these ( Read more... )

So I finally got my toe nail sorted from when it went from horrendously painful to not painful but leaky to never wanting to heal. Spanning back from october. I'm not scared of needles, no matter how intimedating they appear, but It depends if I'm having something withdrawn or injected into me, and anesthetic pang's like a bitch. I had 2 full ( Read more... )

I had this weird feeling today. Easy to explain maybe hard to understand. I felt like I loved nothing. Like I was in love but I literally was in love with absolutely nothing It's the most confusing and weird feeling I've had in ages. I thought it must of been myself but it's not. I'm so perplexed by it I dunno what the hell is going on with me.

Yet another god awful christmas. Yet I didn't expect any less from it. I wanna smack my aunt in the fucking face for the same shit she gets me every year, and verbal aggro of my parents and neighbours who got drunk and high about my driving test which I doing well at anyway yet they seemed determined to have a go at me cause they don't understand ( Read more... )

I had a bit of a revelation today. That something pretty important is coming up in mylife this christmas besides it being the 25th christmas I'ld of been alive to witnesses. (Remembering is an issue for grown adults in somecases so the few baby years can be a forgiven waver of sorts.) When it dawned on me I was amazed by the realisation in and of ( Read more... )

I was reading an article about a woman unsure about dating a guy. and yet again with all unsure women why the fuck can they not see that men will only and always til the end of time when seeking a female want sex from them as a hello. Fair enough its not the only thing but it is the primary DNA gentic coding. All that love, sentiment, emotion and ( Read more... )

• Affection
• Confidence
• Self Esteem
• Willingness
• Sex

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