Holy cow! Ironically enough - i was wondering if you still read this just the other day. This has become less of a journal and more of a dumping ground for the worst of me. It’s my own part of the void that I scream into when things get bleak. Thankfully this seems to happen less and less.
I know you wouldn’t think this by reading my lj, but things actually are better. I’m not drinking myself to death. I’ve been clean from SH since nov 2017. I’m with someone that makes me wants to see what life past 50 will be like. I’d like to think I’m not a total piece of shit anymore (as much my depression still tries to tell me otherwise.) the negative is still there, but it’s not as loud, you know?
Anyways it means a lot that you cared enough to say something. I hope you’ve been well
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I know you wouldn’t think this by reading my lj, but things actually are better. I’m not drinking myself to death. I’ve been clean from SH since nov 2017. I’m with someone that makes me wants to see what life past 50 will be like. I’d like to think I’m not a total piece of shit anymore (as much my depression still tries to tell me otherwise.) the negative is still there, but it’s not as loud, you know?
Anyways it means a lot that you cared enough to say something. I hope you’ve been well
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