Second captain of the debating club - you've got the GPA, but where is the dirty love?
Nothing feels right these days.
About 98% of my time is now spent in one of two states: feeling totally stressed out, or feeling lifeless and morose (the other 2% is spent sleeping). My weekdays consist of the former, and the weekends of the latter.
I'm not really sure how most people spend their weekends (I assume doing things they enjoy), but these days I seem to be spending my weekends entirely indoors, watching the same movies again, cooking when I'm not even hungry, wasting vast amounts of time, and neglecting hygiene. It's important that all of this be done wearing only a pair of Spongebob pajama pants. Weekends are also spent with an altered sleeping cycle; waking up between 3pm to 9pm and possibly sleeping around noon. This would continue on into the week, but I hate the thought of missing class, which is enough to drag me out of bed before the sun sets. Actually, I really don't mind missing class, at all - I just can't stand not knowing if I missed some important, grade impacting announcement.
Highly unmotivated. I think that explains recent feelings. Haven't felt like going to the rec center. Or to the bars. Or working on business projects. Doing nothing at all doesn't work either, because then my time is just spent feeling shitty for not doing whatever it is that I should be working on.
As stated, weekdays consist of scrambling to do this and that, downing lots of coffee and reading boring textbooks, running late to meetings, pulling hair out, etc. You lose track of time pretty quick this way. I just remembered that I still haven't hosted an entrepreneurship meeting I was supposed to set up two weeks ago.
I feel extremely disconnected, and I have to wonder if that's the bigger problem here. You interact with people, engage in small talk, etc, but that's as far as it goes. A dozen or more people may ask how your day has been going, but it's discomforting to know that it's very likely that not a one of them has genuine interest.
Things need to change, but I know not what or how.
About 98% of my time is now spent in one of two states: feeling totally stressed out, or feeling lifeless and morose (the other 2% is spent sleeping). My weekdays consist of the former, and the weekends of the latter.
I'm not really sure how most people spend their weekends (I assume doing things they enjoy), but these days I seem to be spending my weekends entirely indoors, watching the same movies again, cooking when I'm not even hungry, wasting vast amounts of time, and neglecting hygiene. It's important that all of this be done wearing only a pair of Spongebob pajama pants. Weekends are also spent with an altered sleeping cycle; waking up between 3pm to 9pm and possibly sleeping around noon. This would continue on into the week, but I hate the thought of missing class, which is enough to drag me out of bed before the sun sets. Actually, I really don't mind missing class, at all - I just can't stand not knowing if I missed some important, grade impacting announcement.
Highly unmotivated. I think that explains recent feelings. Haven't felt like going to the rec center. Or to the bars. Or working on business projects. Doing nothing at all doesn't work either, because then my time is just spent feeling shitty for not doing whatever it is that I should be working on.
As stated, weekdays consist of scrambling to do this and that, downing lots of coffee and reading boring textbooks, running late to meetings, pulling hair out, etc. You lose track of time pretty quick this way. I just remembered that I still haven't hosted an entrepreneurship meeting I was supposed to set up two weeks ago.
I feel extremely disconnected, and I have to wonder if that's the bigger problem here. You interact with people, engage in small talk, etc, but that's as far as it goes. A dozen or more people may ask how your day has been going, but it's discomforting to know that it's very likely that not a one of them has genuine interest.
Things need to change, but I know not what or how.