I've been thinking more and more about the idea of doing away with my entire personality, my entire history, my entire life as it has been so far, and just making up something new.  Is it possible to throw your old life away and start a new one?  Is it possible to rid yourself of the chains of the past, those chains that Jacob Marley drug around ( Read more... )

Raging is vanity.  Hating is vanity.  Blogging is vanity.  What was that thing that Richard III said that one time ( Read more... )

One of the nobility of Hell has picked me out to be her toy.  Compared to you, I am happy indeed.  But somehow it rings like a false coin.  Do you remember the first lad or lass you loved?

When you felt you chest was too narrow to hold your heart?  When it seemed the world was made anew by your passion?

And do you remember the fear that comes with ( Read more... )

Cause it's time to bring the fire down
Bridle all this indiscretion
Long enough to edify
And permanently fill this hollow

In order to swim up from the cold dark depths, we must first surpass the Leviathan.  Jormungandr has so many wrapped in his coils, but to free yourself from the earthly bondage that likens you to serpents is the goal, so that you ( Read more... )

I spent the whole night at work writing.  It was, surprisingly, pretty fucking awesome.  I sat down and said to myself, "I'm going to write something completely masturbatory in order to gratify myself and myself alone."  I had not idea what was to come of it, but I started writing from the gut, and came up with a story about a guy who had been ( Read more... )

Today, towards the end of my December-long bitching and whining streak, I realized how fortunate I am to have a handful of really good friends.  The quality can't be beat ( Read more... )

It creeps in, every now and then.  Lack.  Lacking.  A sense of incompleteness.  A sense of all the horrible phantoms that take so much determination to suppress, to keep down, to undo, to unravel.

Unhealthy thoughts for the day include:

-Wishing death onto a friend's husband for selfish reasons

-Dreaming of going back in time to undo my mistakes

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I feel wrecked.  I think I'm coming down with the sicksux.

I looked in the mirror last night and saw a stranger.  It blew my mind to think that I had been a baby once.  My mom told me that before she had me she wished for a little boy on a shooting star.  It got me to thinking.  What is the difference between a shooting star and a falling star?

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From me, to you

I spent a lot of time on the internet realizing that the world will never be as awesome as it used to be.

MTV used to play music.  It also used to have wicked-ass weird cartoons like The Head and The Maxx.  And then reality television came alone and destroyed TV forever.  Reality television was like the Antichrist of programming that has crippled ( Read more... )