Cellphone ring tones are the online version of Mardi Gras beads.

So all that good stuff I posted earlier about walking away from the fears that I use to chain myself? Well, it's going pretty good. I'm doing things and I'm in a place mentally and financially that I never thought I'd find myself in. Cept now its Winter, Gods damned Winter, and I've got more cracks forming than baked desert. The Lonely has got me ( Read more... )

So I was 'stumbling' through the internet the other day and I came across an ad/preview for 'The Real News,' an internet TV network that claims to be well... 'The Real News.' The content of the video was all good: Decrying media hucksterism and the whole empty spectacle that modern news media has become. Touching on the psychological methods used ( Read more... )

Never mind. Whoever read that last post; disregard it. I spoke through the voice of my internal advisor, Virgo in aspect, cynical and over-analytic. Cynical here because I spoke from outside my perspective, as if seeing it from above, logical but un-internalized. It is the fate of things seen this way to come out as preaching and rhetoric, and so ( Read more... )

I'm going to go into work tonight and I'm going to carry a fucking tray around, even though it'll make me a worse server. I'm going to let that bombastic trainer and the rest of them talk down to me without a frown. I'm going to bend over and let them shove their square corporate peg into my round hole and I'm not going to scream. And now, ( Read more... )

The tickets have been bought. We're setting off on June 19th, and we're all sitting next to each other with a window for each pair. Tomorrow Cody and I are moving all of our stuff into the storage unit and I've managed to get rid of MOST of my world possesions. All I'm keeping is my futon matress, a select few books, movies and cds, and a ( Read more... )

It's official. Cody, Nick and I got the job at Diamonds Int. down in the Virgin Islands and we're flying out around June 20th. I've got a bit under a month to prepare completely to move out of the continental U.S.. Fucking sweet. That means it's everbody's favorite time: LIST TIME ( Read more... )

Things have been picking up out here in the midwest. This past Thursday and Friday were my weekend, and for the first time in a long time I got the hell out of Lawrence and into the country. Lee and I went to visit her mom in Payola to see her rediculously beautiful garden. There were more flowers there than I had known existed and birds of colors ( Read more... )

To all of my tribe whom I've neglected these past months, I'm deeply sorry. This stage in my life seems to be a long and painful process of coming to terms with my fear and resentment of money, societal responsibility, and the game at large. This cycle is also about reaching a level of existing without lust of result and desire for instant ( Read more... )

I've gone to somewhat of an opposite extreme with something that I consider a big deal in life and I need to stop. It can only lead to not goodness in the end. Gotta fix that. I've tried to keep it sincere and be true to myself end everyone with it, but I'm feeling slightly ingenuine and that's the last thing I want. I've got that slightly oogie ( Read more... )