Just cried...

[nomanarmy0]

I've had a tough couple of days emotionally. Yesterday I went on AIM (for the first time in a looong time, reminded me why i have to avoid it for now), and I talked to a kid I know. He right away started attacking my faith. I felt tense. But i also felt a sadness I havent felt in a long time. So many people are lost. How do I know I'm found? All

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[lnchbxcnfsional]

.i envy you.

Huh?

[nomanarmy0]

Huh?

Re: Huh?

[lnchbxcnfsional]

"So I've felt awful lately... People are so depraved, and I wanna get swept away in that too, which makes me even more sad because I can understand how they get so depraved. And so today, I came into my room, popped on some Brave Saint Saturn...and i just let loose. I just wept and wept. It was so good. ...and i just cried about it, because it felt like what needed to be done. "

ive been on the verge of tears for the past month. and yet no tears.
not for me, not for them, not for Him. I feel it in my gut. I know it in my mind. And yet my heart does not want to be broken. Not now. I'm a crybaby 99.9999998% of the time. And this has been the worst month despite all the good news and answered prayers I've received.

I envy you with the upmost envy I can feel. I could almost cry about it... if only I could cry.

Re: Huh?

[lnchbxcnfsional]

ps. why else do you think i wanted BSS sooo stinkin' badly?