There seems to always be a point where I become fatigued and make less sense. Is it like... information depletion drunkenness? Where my brain has worked for so long to get shit out of it it just gets a bit sleepy ( Read more... )

Alright I definitely reached the crossroads of "Ok I've vented enough to be sated for this LiveJournal experience for now" and "ugh I have to keep going, holy shit I have so far to go"

But what else, though? What else is on my mind?

My point being that I'm definitely worried about my place in life and what I would do if my mom's health goes downhill. It's fucking terrifying. Plus, down the road from that, not having that lifeline or support in my life... just, permanently. What a paradigm shift. It's crazy to think about. Objectively it makes sense but on a human level it's ( Read more... )

I don't like being confronted with my mom's mortality. She's kind of up-there in age and I know, statistically, she only has 5-10 good years left in her, regarding physical activity, being able, that kind of thing. And I'm... a really late bloomer in this fucking "life" thing. Part of it is how much of a slacker I am, and averse to working hard or ( Read more... )

Something kind of scary happened tonight. My mom had a weird moment where her body froze up and she started falling backwards, she said it was a combination of too-strong weed and maybe low blood pressure. I helped her recline slowly from the door frame, she totally blacked out and woke up like 15 seconds later, even though she responded to me in ( Read more... )

Whoaaaaaaa

a fifth-way there

WHOOOAAA-AAAAAA

LIVING ON A PRAYER

So yeah, that work friend thing happened. Nothing of value was lost, there, so good riddance.

It's stupid but I think I inherited my dad's entitled, way-too-long, essay-in-letter-form, vengeful writing style. I remember letters he would send to, say, my mom, that were waaaaaaay too long to get the point across. I wish I had access to some of them, but honestly I wouldn't want to get involved with my mom looking up whatever she has stored. ( Read more... )

Her response was basically a snide but overall bridled text of three concepts ( Read more... )