and still if i yell at the top of my lungs, will it be the same?

[noneedforchange]

and every day i wake up to the same incessant beeping and walk the same lines to the same places. i see the same faces with whom i generally don't interact. sometimes i go out; sometimes i don't. but every night, regardless, i return to the same empty room and harbor the same gnawing loneliness. i can't even sleep anymore. i physically can't no

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hiya

[veryunlucky13]

my cell phone is missing, :'(

but once i find it, consider you're ass bugged

soon, youll have some company

also

[lrainorshinel]

i'm sorry you're lonely. if it's any consolation i think you are really brave to be out there. so should i send you some tylenol p.m. or would that make it worse?
chin up and remember people miss you and would be out there with you in a heartbeat if they had the opportunity....

[noneedforchange]

i mean, i love it here, don't get me wrong, but i still miss all the people who are important to me a whole lot, ya kno? and it's just like, at least physically, i am alone, and that makes things hard sometimes. i <3 you lizabeth and we're gona make lots of babies when i come back.=)

[lrainorshinel]

well people are definitely with you in spirit =)
and when do you get to visit?

[vieuphoria_girl]

You don't know me but I understand your situation. Every one of your entries reminds me of when I was in Arizona. After high school I moved out there. The people around where I lived were all on meth and shady. I was so lonely and sad. I missed everything. My friends, my parents, the rain, cloudy days, winter..etc. It really is VERY different out west. In the end me and my boyfriend moved back nine months later. Anyway I understand.

Do people give you shit about being from Ohio? Me and my boyfriend got shit all the time!

[noneedforchange]

heh no, not really, but they do make a big deal every time i say pop...

[vieuphoria_girl]

Yeah out west it's soda...I think.