Her Reflections

[neo_silentchaos]

You said before that
You were the center of the sea, placid and deep.
If I ever find myself in that secluded place
Please shackle me completely so I could gladly drown
And that I could take part in your silence

Because...

First of all,
You were never there when I wanted you to.
Perhaps because I was trying to keep
you who belonged to no one but you.

Still, I kept you.
I held on longer than the longest I could.
Maybe because if I ever let you go
You wouldn't stray as far as I need you to be.

Now however
You are nowhere to be found, no matter
Where or how I look. Even when I see your
Face in a crowd full of lively faces.

You move me still
Even though I choose to stay in place
A place so barren and lifeless
That the ground is yearning for tears.

I don't know
If I really need you in my life.
And I might never know for
Nothing sinks in a sea of ice.

Forever shall you remain a mystery to me.
Like the center of the sea.