haunted by my dreams
i hurt
i am not what i may seem
i hurt
a reminiscent pain
i hurt
love always treats me the same
i hurt
this heart can't take much more
i hurt
feeling emptiness i abore
i hurt
open eyes to a cruel world
i hurt
dizzingly my emotions twirl
i hurt
she has turned it all off
but ME...
I still fucking hurt

so i'm not really sure what I'm feeling right now. Is it just loneliness or am i missing her. I have been doing decent with the whole healing thing but then i have times like right now where I really just want to be with her. I know that she doesn't feel this same way and hasn't for awhile. what is wrong with me where every time I'm in love I ( Read more... )

upon further inspection i am starting to come to realise that the last few months have been the most important time of my life so far. I wonder that I am not the same person, but someone different with the same feel. I don't know if this makes sense yet or not but it is what it is ( Read more... )

A Japanese doctor says, "Medicine in my country is so advanced that we can take a kidney out of one man, put it in another, and have him looking for work in six weeks' A German doctor says, "That is nothing, we can take a lung out of one person, put it in another, and have him looking for work in four weeks." A British doctor says, in my country, ( Read more... )

well I'm bored, sober, and slightly depressed....

hopefully one of those can change or I'm headed for a long shitty night

is it a good or bad sign when you wake up at 3:30 in the afternoon and the first thing you do is drink a beer?

i for one say no it means you are alive.

i dunno

we had a discussion in class that made me absoulutely sick to my stomach. Exxon Mobil the worlds largest oil company had recently released it's earnings for this year and they showed that there profit thats right PROFIT had increased by 20%!!!! WTF!!! how is it that these companies can make all this extra money when we the consumers suffer on ( Read more... )

another bottle drained,
another lonely night,
why do i complain,
or even bother to fight,
i know what i have done,
but will i ever stop,
i have lost another one,
will i ever come out on top,
i could fill an ocean with these tears

well i'm about to chill out and devote the rest of my night to Jade Empire and Beer, but i thought i would share the fact that I got the things that needed to be done tonight finished so now I feel i deserve this.

by the way Jade Empire FUCKING ROCKS!!!!!

being in love with someone and not being able to have them is seriously getting really fucking old.

in case it isn't obvious i am in yet another fucking slump!!!!!!

grrrrrrrr