so my mom called me today crying and crap and was all like "i love you tell your sister i love her" and i kept asking what was wrong and she wouldnt say and then the phone went dead, well i called back and noone answered ( Read more... )

my emotions are on a rampage this week, i know why, womanly stuff, but oh well

time heals all wounds, this too shall pass

that is really helping me out.

thank you liz for always being there for me, you're like a sister to me

she puts an entry in her book
locks it up so no one can look
her words are smeared by her tears
these pages are filled with her fears
she writes about the good times that they had
and about the white wedding that they had planned
but now those dreams have faded to black
she doubts he'll be coming back

my chest hurts really bad right now
im freezing
i got a major fever
and im bleeding from various spots

one of the possible outcomes if i went to bed now
i'd die of a heart attack, bleed a pool of blood into my bed, then boil myself in my own blood, then freeze myself off so i last longer.

haha im really stressed out right now.

it's good to know your wanted.
it sucks to know im not.

ok, i just typed alot of crap out about yesterday but none of it was in order, so i will do it all over again for your sake

first, we were late, because my mom had to finish cooking alot of the food, we were all supposed to meet over at my brothers house, and we got there and only my brother sandon,his gf chris, and my nephew james were there, ( Read more... )

i want everyone who reads this to ask me three questions, no more no less. ask me anything you want. then, i want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything.

this oppertunity may never come again, take advantage

i got this whole family bbq/late birthday party get together for me and my sister tomorrow, i was even nice and made her some vegitarian dishes because she looks all out of place while everyone else is eating because when my brother throw's bbq's he always forgets she's a vegitarian so im being a good sister.

i don't know im semi excited, i think ( Read more... )

im anxious at the moment, and i dont know why, i do but what im thinking about thats making me anxious shouldnt because it's not like its going to happen anytime soon.

it's been almost two months and i now relize it's time to move on, i don't want to completely forget about it, but i dont want to think about it everyday and dwell on it, its obvious ( Read more... )

so yesterday was my birthday, im 19 now...im old
yesterday was horrible, i think 3 people total said happy birthday to me, the only good part about it was picking up my cake because it's so beautiful and having a water fight with my sister and nephew and neice.
goodbye.