'kermit's right: "those people" feel just like you do sometimes. I'd say anyone who claims they don't ever feel that way is lying. That said, there may also be things you can learn or ways you can grow that can help you feel more confident. Confidence comes from a lot of different things (not the least of which is "fake-it-'til-you-make-it"): belief in your own abilities, plus the understanding that you can't be the best (or even good) at everything; understanding that you'll be loved by the people who love you no matter how silly you may act or look; and, a realization that "who you are" isn't (or at least may not be) anything more than what you do and feel. Examine your own impact, your own "bigness" in the world, and know that you do have power; examine your own insignificance and "smallness" -- you are a tiny piece of a very large organism, it's scary sometimes, but it's also possible to take comfort in the fact that the world goes on despite our anxieties
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I really appreciate what you said. Even though we haven't talked in a long time, you are still there for me and my sanity and I hope you know how much that means to me. I know that no one really, truly ever has it all figured out; but it seems like there are those around me who have themselves more figured out than I do. I know that I am liked for who I am, but is that really who I am?
I was telling T last night about this post and how there are many people coming back into my life that I have not seen or talked to in a while, and some of those people I really admire (envy) for being so...straight to the point, no bullshit, I am doing what I love for a living, I am who I am. Not that there aren't people in my life like that now, but it just more noticeable.
I do agree that life is mysterious and beautiful and I tend to enjoy it but wouldn't it be better if I enjoyed it more? I think I would if I had more of myself figured out...
So weird my man. My sense of you is that you know exactly who you are. Personification is a strange thing. Maybe you already know and can't accept it? That would be my problem. Too many people telling me that who I am is wrong.
I sincerely wish you the best. Artists are folks who live on the outskirts of society, writing the patterns the others follow. I guess once you make a name for yourself people look to you for trends. Otherwise they are confused by your vibe. I swear I knew who I was as a child way more than I do now. Being back home this weekend and listening to people tell amazing stories about me was humbling.
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I was telling T last night about this post and how there are many people coming back into my life that I have not seen or talked to in a while, and some of those people I really admire (envy) for being so...straight to the point, no bullshit, I am doing what I love for a living, I am who I am. Not that there aren't people in my life like that now, but it just more noticeable.
I do agree that life is mysterious and beautiful and I tend to enjoy it but wouldn't it be better if I enjoyed it more? I think I would if I had more of myself figured out...
Thank you.
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I sincerely wish you the best. Artists are folks who live on the outskirts of society, writing the patterns the others follow. I guess once you make a name for yourself people look to you for trends. Otherwise they are confused by your vibe. I swear I knew who I was as a child way more than I do now. Being back home this weekend and listening to people tell amazing stories about me was humbling.
Good luck.
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