Package of Love (oneshot)
Title: Package of Love
By: noobiekidz
Rating: PG
Pairings: JongKey
Warning: fail!Angst
Summary: The unknown package that ruined my whole life, and yet completed it at the same time...
Sometimes I wonder why I picked up that unknown package that I found at my doorstep. The unknown package that ruined my whole life, and yet completed it at the same time. Why did I not just leave it be, and continue life as it was? When I am alone and the band members are out for their schedule, or maybe when I am just left to myself and my thoughts… These are the first thoughts that come to me. These thoughts haunt me like no other, and only by thinking of you am I able to get these thoughts out of my mind.
And yet, you haunt me just as much as those thoughts do. My fingers tingle whenever you brush them with yours when we walk side by side, and my shoulders tingle when you put an arm around me for a quick friendly hug. Whether these are all just fanservice or whether they are for real, I will probably never know. Why, you ask? The reason is simply because you are no longer mine. No longer mine to touch, no longer mine to joke or flirt with.
No longer mine to love.
No matter how much I try to convince myself that you still belong to me, that you are still my best friend and will be there for me no matter what, the fact that you are no longer mine does not change. No longer will the days of performing fanservice for screaming fans continue…
Because you belong to her now.
In the past, all we used to talk about was music, singing and lyrics. We joked about many things, like how Taemin was so careless that he’d lose his handphone every few hours and like how Minho was completely like a scary alien with his big bulging eyes, small face and long legs. We’d talk about how Onew-hyung was such a careless leader, how would trip even if he was just walking over a flat surface and then just pick himself up and give a sheepish smile. And then we would talk about us as well. We’d promise each other that we would be best friends forever, never leaving the other by himself.
But now all we ever talk about is her. All we ever talk about is the good times that you had with her during dinner last night. All we ever joke about is how cute she was when she sneezed. How clumsy she looked when she dropped the plate when she was washing up after dinner last night…
Every time we talk about her, I can feel you drifting further away from me, and no matter how much I desperately reach out to grab you, you’re not coming back. Every time we talk about her, I can feel you drifting closer to her. Becoming her best friend, becoming her lover, becoming her confidante, becoming her everything. And all the while, you are drifting further away from me.
Why are you doing this to me? Can you really not sense how I cringe every time you mention her name? Can you really not see how my eyes narrow every time your eyes light up when we talk? Are you really that blinded by love? But then again, who am I to criticize you, when I have been like that this whole time, except with you instead of her?
Kim Jonghyun… Why did I ever pick up that package of love that you unknowingly left by my doorstep? Now all I want to do is return everything that it contained back to you, so that you can give them to someone else instead. But Kim Jonghyun, I cannot stop loving you. No matter how much I try, I can’t seem to let go of all the memories that you have given me and all the gifts that I have received from you.
Couldn’t we for just one day go back to how it was before you met her, my love?
A/N:
Hehe I got a prompt from shineefan_8d that caused me to write this c:
The prompt was “In the package of love, I found you.”
It was an awesome prompt that prompted me to write this, so I hope you all give this fic some love! :D
Oh, and I won't be able to work on some of my unfinished fics for a while cos the computer where it was stored is dead and I really don't want to spam all of my backed-up files into this already laggy computer... So I'll be uploading those backed-up files when that computer either gets fixed or I get a new one....
Thank you guys so much for being patient! I promise I'll work on my chaptered and unfinished fics soon enough OTL;;
By: noobiekidz
Rating: PG
Pairings: JongKey
Warning: fail!Angst
Summary: The unknown package that ruined my whole life, and yet completed it at the same time...
Sometimes I wonder why I picked up that unknown package that I found at my doorstep. The unknown package that ruined my whole life, and yet completed it at the same time. Why did I not just leave it be, and continue life as it was? When I am alone and the band members are out for their schedule, or maybe when I am just left to myself and my thoughts… These are the first thoughts that come to me. These thoughts haunt me like no other, and only by thinking of you am I able to get these thoughts out of my mind.
And yet, you haunt me just as much as those thoughts do. My fingers tingle whenever you brush them with yours when we walk side by side, and my shoulders tingle when you put an arm around me for a quick friendly hug. Whether these are all just fanservice or whether they are for real, I will probably never know. Why, you ask? The reason is simply because you are no longer mine. No longer mine to touch, no longer mine to joke or flirt with.
No longer mine to love.
No matter how much I try to convince myself that you still belong to me, that you are still my best friend and will be there for me no matter what, the fact that you are no longer mine does not change. No longer will the days of performing fanservice for screaming fans continue…
Because you belong to her now.
In the past, all we used to talk about was music, singing and lyrics. We joked about many things, like how Taemin was so careless that he’d lose his handphone every few hours and like how Minho was completely like a scary alien with his big bulging eyes, small face and long legs. We’d talk about how Onew-hyung was such a careless leader, how would trip even if he was just walking over a flat surface and then just pick himself up and give a sheepish smile. And then we would talk about us as well. We’d promise each other that we would be best friends forever, never leaving the other by himself.
But now all we ever talk about is her. All we ever talk about is the good times that you had with her during dinner last night. All we ever joke about is how cute she was when she sneezed. How clumsy she looked when she dropped the plate when she was washing up after dinner last night…
Every time we talk about her, I can feel you drifting further away from me, and no matter how much I desperately reach out to grab you, you’re not coming back. Every time we talk about her, I can feel you drifting closer to her. Becoming her best friend, becoming her lover, becoming her confidante, becoming her everything. And all the while, you are drifting further away from me.
Why are you doing this to me? Can you really not sense how I cringe every time you mention her name? Can you really not see how my eyes narrow every time your eyes light up when we talk? Are you really that blinded by love? But then again, who am I to criticize you, when I have been like that this whole time, except with you instead of her?
Kim Jonghyun… Why did I ever pick up that package of love that you unknowingly left by my doorstep? Now all I want to do is return everything that it contained back to you, so that you can give them to someone else instead. But Kim Jonghyun, I cannot stop loving you. No matter how much I try, I can’t seem to let go of all the memories that you have given me and all the gifts that I have received from you.
Couldn’t we for just one day go back to how it was before you met her, my love?
A/N:
Hehe I got a prompt from shineefan_8d that caused me to write this c:
The prompt was “In the package of love, I found you.”
It was an awesome prompt that prompted me to write this, so I hope you all give this fic some love! :D
Oh, and I won't be able to work on some of my unfinished fics for a while cos the computer where it was stored is dead and I really don't want to spam all of my backed-up files into this already laggy computer... So I'll be uploading those backed-up files when that computer either gets fixed or I get a new one....
Thank you guys so much for being patient! I promise I'll work on my chaptered and unfinished fics soon enough OTL;;