i thought i was dying only a week ago. i never thought i could hurt so bad. its taking time, but things are slowly going back to normal. i catch him saying things every once in awhile like... "i'm not going to break up with you." ...or... "you are what i want right now." i hope those things are true, but i just don't know. i feel like i have to ( Read more... )

i feel so depressed right now. i couldn't sleep... AT ALL... so obviously i got on the computer. i was messing around on myspace looking at profiles and pics and it made me really really sad. i think i totally missed out on the college experience and/or are missing out. i was looking at autumn's and brittaney's myspace and they totally have a ( Read more... )

so i haven't updated in a little while. i'm at jesse's house right now. jesse is passed out in his room. matthew isn't feeling too well, kyle is taking care of him and i am sittin here trying not to listen to matthew in pain. i feel bad for him. i really really really do. i wish there was something i could do, but it is the kind of thing where the ( Read more... )

man, i'm exhausted. like really really tired. i have been working a lot more, and trying to get my insurance figured out. i don't know if i'm going to leave subway or not. i want to, but i don't know. work in general just sounds awful right now. there isn't one place that sounds good. i think i need a vacation. i don't know. i do need a break ( Read more... )

Crackers was AMAZING!!!!! probably one of the best nights i have had in a really really long time. The comedians were sooooooooo funny. Ruben Paul (the headliner/ black guy), his routine was basically ALL about the difference between black and white people and then threw in a couple hispanic and asian jokes, so that was pretty good. then there were ( Read more... )

so i thought i was going to have to go to the hospital today and spend my saturday night having surgery, but luckily... no ( Read more... )

i need to stop getting excited about things because when they happen... its not like i'm disappointed, but its more like i'm just... ... blah. not really excited. i guess more along the lines of frustrated... i think. ugh.

happy v-day everyone!!!!

so i am rediculously clumsy and i slipped on a piece of ice and hurt my knee... really bad. i couldn't go to work today because i'm on crutches. i am supposed to work tomorrow morning so hopefully the swelling goes down and my manager won't send me home. if i don't work tomorrow then i'll have 3 hours for the week and be really really really poor. ( Read more... )

so i had a job interview yesterday. YIPPEEEEEEEE!!!! i am really really tired of subway. it wouldn't be so bad if my manager weren't a crackhead/ pothead/ alcoholic/ theif/ neglective mother( i'm dead serious about all of those). it really is awful working there because of her. no one sees her as a manager. the people that used to be her friend ( Read more... )

i guess november isn't THAT long away but it seems like forEVER. i want it to be NOW. i can't wait though. Vegas is going to be a great place to have savannah's wedding. we went shopping today for a dress and she looked sooo beautiful. i was almost a little jealous, but i know i'm not ready for that. i guess my grandma was asking my mom when i was ( Read more... )