wrist splitting is what you do
when you want to stay sober
because being high isnt any fun any more
and you just want the pain

and i thought i was totally over this
but i really want the pain.

i feel retardedly betrayed.
fuck life right? go figure.

I'M CUTTING TODAY.
and it fucking sucks too.

im still a kite.

i'm going to try to write this journal entry when i'm sober. talk to you guys soon.

i asked jason last night if he wanted to be my summer. and by summer i mean with strings attached, but only for the summer. and he said... lol NO. simple as that. he said he couldnt because he's busy learning how to fly for the navy, blah blah blah ( Read more... )

INFJ

DEAR FUCKING FREE WORLD,

I'M HAVING A MENTAL FUCKING BREAK DOWN (again).
the drugs arent helping, and i'm going to start cutting again tonight.

THANK YOU.

neverloveme.

8 fl. oz. of tap water, 1 gram of KCn ( Read more... )

i got linked to this: plaques from bang and they send you a cute little plaque or keychain engraved for free :). anyway, mine is going to say 'shiella is love.' because thats what i am, and that will be the theme of my room ( Read more... )

i miss shawn already and its only been the 2nd day since he's left.
i was being emo and read all my old journal entries about him.
i think i was a bitch from the begining.

so with this, being my second short post. id like to say that i will write something meaningful later tonight. maybe.

my uncle died today.

i'm moving to lake city in a few weeks (and i already HATE the thougth of it). what was i thinking to change? god, i really need to work on this impusle thing of mine.

ive taken an active interest to be uninterested in my journal.

Hello Shiella ( Read more... )