i woke up and i realized that i was still here. i was still me. as much as we dreamed of getting away from ourselves, we wake up in the misery that we are still us and nothing is ever going to change that ( Read more... )

adsf

road trip music ( Read more... )

Shawn and i got into the most awful quarrel. i would rather not repeat what happened but the rise of yesterday makes me nauseous and i could journal that as one of the worst and most infamous days of our relationship ( Read more... )

i hope we're not loosing it.

shawn looks so happy when he wakes up.
i hope he's happy because he wakes up next to me.

i know i dont mind waking up because i'm next to him.

le_sigh.

garden state made me cry; best movie i've seen in a while.

this is what my razor blade looks like.

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its the shawn. (: <3

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i gave shawn the last of his birthday present last night. i wore this white, silky, saucy little number, i did a total farrah on my hair, and lastly i had on little angel wings. let me tell you, cupid certainly ate his heart out. it makes sense because christmas i totally had the santa hat, and so it was only fitting that i be cupid on ( Read more... )

i cant stop sneezing
my braces are killing me

hi shawn, i love you.

i hate warcraft
i hate wrestling
i hate ultimate fighting champion or whatever the fuck its called
i fucking hate fear factor
i hate today
i fucking hate everything about today

i want to fucking cut my wrists
i hate how i think im fucking sober about this

i still fucking hate today

SLIT MY THROAT ALREADY.