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So i think i messed up again. Matt wasn't showing any further interest in me (and even told casey that he was happy being my friend)so i gave up. thats when i realized i had some feelings for scrotum. and scrotum showed interest as well. so we fooled around and almost had sex (i thought we had a thing, thats why.) and he said that we shouldn't cuz ( Read more... ) -
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So i am now $1500 in debt. How? no clue. im so ridiculous. tyhank god for my little casey. she is playing with my numbers and getting me a plan to get back on track. so in like october i shall be good. woohoo. -
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Im getting so frustrated. this is the hardest i've ever had to work to get a guy. im starting to think hes not interested, which sucks cuz i really like this boy. but damn. it shouldn't be this hard should it ( Read more... ) -
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So i met someone. He is so nice and so funny and so awesome. i met him on fourth of july at a rockin party i went to with the Kramers. well i saw him there. i didnt meet him until a few days later. he reminds me of mackuly culkin (or however you spell it. he is so stinkin adorable. we hang out all the time. his name is...get this...matt. how weird ( Read more... ) -
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I wanna thank you all. i couldn't have gotten through this without everyones support. This experience has made me realize how many people care about me. I dont have just Matt, like i so often believed. I have a ton of friends, but most importantly i have myself and God. So see, some good came of this. It also made me realize the kind of person i ( Read more... ) -
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so the day has finally come. i have accepted it. i can finally say that Matt and i will never be together again. and its ok. it really is. yeah, it still hurts, but thats expected. he was a massive part of my life and heart and who i am. he helped shape the person i am today. i can now step forward and no long fear leaving him behind. who knows, ( Read more... ) -
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wanna hear something crazy? its almost been one month since we broke up. God, it seems as if it was yesterday, i still remember it so clearly. and its almost our one year and 8 month anniversary. almost 2 fucking years. sorry, didn''t mean to start crying. i've actually been doing real good. of coarse i havent been letting myself think about it. ( Read more... ) -
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i feel like im starting to do alot better. i have been so angry at myself i have been (unfortunatly for others) taking it out on everyone else. especially casey. poor kid. i have been misconstruding everything shes been saying. her and matt arent going to do anything it was just drunken ramblings. i know that, but hearing it hurt. casey is my best ( Read more... ) -
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Yesterday casey convinced me to go to this party with her. i had a blast i knew everyone there (my old friends from high school). it was like a reunion. until someone drugged our drinks. after a while all the girls left and it was me and casey and liek 10 boys. then two of the boys took casey home while i was passing out in soemm boy i used to ( Read more... )