[Hotel Dusk] Ghosts Who Breathe
GHOSTS WHO BREATHE
A Hotel Dusk Fanmix
Because Kyle and Brian are one of the biggest OTPs who ever OTP'd. For serious. It's weirdly subtle, though, despite being glaringly obvious. Kind of like a couple who've been together for years. When you go to visit them, they're not all kissy-face and stupid nicknames, or even really all that demonstrative at all, but you can tell they're a couple nonetheless. Also, short one of them murdering my family, I don't know of many "just friends" I'd give up my entire career for and chase around for three years, no matter what they did to me. Kyle totally hasn't figured it out, though. Which is probably why he can't quite seem to grasp why people are so surprised when he denies that he hates Brian. Honestly, Kyle. The only simple reason a (relatively) sane person would still be desperately searching for someone after three years straight, and with no end in sight, is either because, A) they really, really hate that person, or B) they really, really love that person. And you've already denied the hate part.
I mean, come on, you're doing the exact same thing as Kevin Woodward, and he's both married to and in love with the person he's looking for. Hell, depending on the ending, you've even got a kid in tow, too, by the end of it. The parallels are so glaringly obvious that I can't imagine how the writers could have missed it.
GHOSTS WHO BREATHE [a hotel dusk fanmix]
KEEP THE CAR RUNNING >> arcade fire Pre-game. Bradley's in over his head, and he knows it. And he knows that pretty soon, Kyle will know it, too. Brian knows that he has a choice between running and dying. Mila's gone, his life is gone, and Kyle's become part of Brian's past before the poor bastard even knows something's wrong. The hell is there left to live for?
But when you grow up in a city like this one, whether or not you've got a damn thing left to live for don't have jack shit to do with whether or not you're gonna keep living.
So he'll run.
Every night my dream's the same
Same old city with a different name
Men are coming to take me away
I don't know why, but I know I can't stay
There's a weight that's pressing down
Late at night you can hear the sound
Even the noise you make when you sleep
Can't swim across a river so deep
They know my name 'cause I told it to them
But they don't know where
And they don't know when it's coming
When it's coming
There's a fear I keep so deep
Knew its name since before I could speak
They know my name 'cause I told it to them
But they don't know where
And they don't know when it's coming
Oh, when it's coming
Keep the car running
If some night I don't come home
Please don't think I've left you alone
The same place animals go when they die
You can't climb across a mountain so high
The same city where I go when I sleep
You can't swim across a river so deep
They know my name 'cause I told it to them
But they don't know where
And they don't know when it's coming
Oh, when is it coming?
Keep the car running
Keep the car running
Keep the car running
TRUE ROMANCE >> tiger army Brian betrayed him, and Kyle can't get over it. Hell, can't even wrap his head around it, that Brian wouldcouldstab him in the back. All Kyle knows is that it hurts, it hurts so fucking bad that even the burn of whiskey can't distract him for long.
He turns in his badge; partially because they'll just fire him anyway if he doesn't, but mostly because Brian Bradley is out there somewhere, and Kyle needs to find him. It's the only thing that matters anymore.
I told you right from the start
A knife up to your throat for one put through my heart
Couldn't hold on and this I should've known
Thinking back as I walk the night alone
...
Night gives no rest and I cannot sleep
When I can see your face, it's tattooed on my dreams
Purple heart pumps sorrow through my veins
I awaken, I'm calling out your name
I often think back to that night
...
Felt like I would die; I couldn't stand the pain
And there's nothing left except one thing:
I've gotta see you again
DROVE THROUGH GHOSTS TO GET HERE >> 65daysofstatic Three years later, Kyle arrives at Hotel Dusk. He's still searching for Brian, in everything he does, in every move he makes. He just can't let it go, not yet; maybe not ever.
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YOU'RE ALL I HAVE >> snow patrol What the hell does Kyle think he's going to find, if he finds Brian? Does he really think an answer will be enough to free him, to allow him to finally let go of what he's clung to so desperately for the past three years?
Yes.
No.
The real question is, does it even matter anymore? Every day of his life is spent searching for clues, trying to dig up leads, looking for something to hold onto that will lead him to Brian. He doesn't have anything else. This is it. This is all.
Strain this chaos, turn it into light
I've got to see you one last night
Before the lions take their share
Leave us in pieces, scattered everywhere
...
Give me a chance to hold on
Just give me something to hold onto
It's so clear now that you are all that I have
LAST DAY OF MAGIC >> the kills Six months ago, Kyle Hyde stayed in Room 217, also known as "Prayer". Problem is, Kyle's never been to Hotel Dusk before. It doesn't take a genius to put two and two together: Brian Bradley was here six months ago. Kyle has a lead for the first time in three years, and it's going to lead him to Brian if it kills him.
We're two parties,
Two parties ending
What if you move?
What if you hide?
There's only so much you can miss
Before we both collide
My little tornado
My little hurricano
Last day of magic
Where are you?
...
I'll be the man with the broom
If you'll be the guts of the room
And there's only so much you can hide
Before I corner you
...
Coming through
The eye of the storm
And I hold on to
My little tornado
My little hurricano
I'll be the man with the broom
If you'll be the guts of the room
And there's only so much you can hide
Before I corner you
HAVE TO EXPLODE >> the mountain goats As Kyle digs deeper into the mysteries surrounding Hotel Dusk, he realizes that everyone has their secrets. And with this much clandestine activity, sooner or later, everything's going to, well... explode. And Kyle's convinced that when everything comes to light, that is when he'll finally know the truth about what happened to his partner, and why their friendship ended with a knife in Kyle's back.
Tile floor of the bathroom
Scrubbed clean and bright
Checkerboard white and grey
Towels from the Ritz-Carlton hotel in Kingston Jamaica
I can still see the rust colored stains today
The stage is set;
Someone's gonna do something someone else will regret
I speak in smoke signals and you answer in code
The fuse will have to run out sometime
Something here will
Eventually have to explode
Have to explode
...
Staring up, up at the hundred-watt light that burns above
Name one thing about us two anyone could love
We roll out the red carpet
When rotten luck comes down the road
Five, four, three, two, one
Watch for the flash
Something here will eventually have to explode
Have to explode
EVERYBODY KNOWS >> rufus wainwright The night wears on as the hours slide by, and Kyle's uncovered almost every mystery... all except for Brian's. But he knows he's almost there, and that's more than enough to keep him going. By tomorrow morning, it will be over. He'll have answers. He has to.
Everybody knows that the dice are loaded
Everybody rolls with their fingers crossed
Everybody knows the war is over
Everybody knows the good guys lost
Everybody knows the fight was fixed
The poor stay poor, the rich get rich
That's how it goes
And everybody knows
Everybody knows that the boat is leaking
Everybody knows that the captain lied
Everybody's got this broken feeling
Like their father or their dog just died
Everybody's talking to their pockets
Everybody wants a box of chocolates
And a long-stemmed rose
And everybody knows
...
Everybody knows that it's now or never
Everybody knows that it's me or you
And everybody knows that you live forever
Ah, when you've done a line or two
And everybody knows that the plague is coming
Everybody knows that it's moving fast
Everybody knows that the naked man and woman
Are just a shining artifact of the past
And everybody knows the scene is dead
But there's gonna be a meter on your bed
That will disclose
What everybody knows
And everybody knows that you're in trouble
Everybody knows what you've been through
From the bloody cross on top of calvary
To the beach in Malibu
And everybody knows it's coming apart
Take one last look at this sacred heart
Before it blows
And everybody knows
Everybody knows
Everybody knows
That's how it goes
And everybody knows
SEVENTY TIMES 7 >> brand new THERE'S NO "I" IN TEAM >> taking back sunday Finally, every mystery is solved... the only thing left to find is Brian Bradley himself. Instead, Kyle finds a letter.
So, what exactly happened that night, on the docks three years ago? There are two sides to every story, and sometimes they're mirror images.
Three years ago, facing Brian on the docks with his gun drawn, Kyle knew nothing. Brian knew everything, but couldn't say a word. Kyle
"Why?"
Brian
"Three years ago, I betrayed you.
I put your finger on that trigger, and I made you pull it."
I remember I kept thinking that I know you never would
And now I know I want to kill you like only a best friend could
...
They say you need to pray if you want to go to heaven
But they don't tell you what to say
when your whole life has gone to hell
...
So, is that what you call a getaway?
Tell me what you got away with
'Cause I've seen more spine in jellyfish
I've seen more guts in eleven-year-old kids
Have another drink and drive yourself home
I hope there's ice on all the roads
And you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt
and again when your head goes through the windshield
And is that what you call tact?
You're as subtle as a brick in the small of my back
So let's end this call, and end this conversation
And is that what you call a getaway?
Well, tell me what you got away with
Well, I can't regret it
Can't you just forget it?
I started something I couldn't finish
And if we go down, we go down together
Best friends means, well, best friends means
And I've got a twenty-dollar bill
That says you're up late night starting
Fist fights versus fences in your backyard
Wearing your black eye like a badge of honor
Soaking in sympathy
From friends who never loved you
Nearly half as much as me
Broken down in bars and bathrooms
All I did was what I had to
Don't believe me when I tell you:
"It's just what anyone would do."
Take the time to talk about it
Think a lot and live without it
Don't believe me when I tell you:
"It's something unforgivable."
Best friends means I pulled the trigger
Best friends means you get what you deserve
I'LL KEEP YOUR MEMORY VAGUE >> finger eleven The letter. As much as Brian's tried to leave Kyle behind, he also knows that Kyle wouldn't have been able to let go. And to be honest, Brian hasn't exactly done everything in his power to let Kyle go, either.
"Because I know you. You're a damn bulldog, Hyde.
I knew you wouldn't let it go. I had to believe that."
But this is it. It's over, now. End of the line. This is the last goodbye.
brian: This won't break your heart
But I just think it could
'Cause I haven't tried as hard as I should
To separate you from everything I do
But I would never want to come between us two
I'll keep your memory vague
So you won't feel bad about me
I'll say the things that you said
Sometimes so it reminds me
Now I'm thinking back
To what I said before
I hope your heart won't have to hurt anymore
'Cause it's really not that sad from here
Because the moments I can feel you near
They keep you close to me, my dear
And if they ever become too clear...
I'll keep your memory vague
So you won't feel bad about me
I'll say the things that you said
Sometimes so it reminds me
kyle: Now you've gone away
Don't worry, it's okay
That you're gone away
Further than yesterday
But you'll never leave these scenes
My mind replays
I'll keep your memory vague
So you won't feel bad about me
I'll say the things that you said
Sometimes so it reminds me
Where in the world have you gone now?
JUMPER >> third eye blind The conclusion of the letter. Brian wants Kyle to forget about him; Brian's a ghost, now, a part of Kyle's past and nothing more than a memory, and he wants to stay that way. He doesn't want Kyle to be drawn into the same trap Brian's made for himself.
"Stop looking for me, Kyle. My way is a dead-end street. Let me go. I'm a ghost now."
I wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again, I would understand
I would understand
The angry boy, a bit too insane
Icing over a secret pain
You know you don't belong
You're the first to fight
You're way too loud
You're the flash of light on a burial shroud
I know something's wrong
Well, everyone I know has got a reason
To say, "Put the past away."
I wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again, I would understand
I would understand
Well, he's on the table and he's gone to code
And I do not think anyone knows
What they're doing here
And your friends have left you
You've been dismissed
I never thought it would come to this
And I, I want you to know
Everyone's got to face down the demons
Maybe today
You could put the past away
Can you put the past away?
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
I would understand
I SWALLOWED HARD, LIKE I UNDERSTOOD >> 65daysofstatic He's finished reading.
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BROTHERS ON A HOTEL BED >> death cab for cutie It's over, in every sense of the word. Kyle falls asleep in the room that grants wishes.
Hotel Dusk: Room 215
You may tire of me as our December sun is setting
'Cause I'm not who I used to be
No longer easy on the eyes, but these wrinkles masterfully disguise
The youthful boy below who turned your way and saw
Something he was not looking for: both a beginning and an end
But now he lives inside someone he does not recognize
When he catches his reflection on accident
On the back of a motor bike
With your arms outstretched trying to take flight
Leaving everything behind
But even at our swiftest speed
We couldn't break from the concrete
In the city where we still reside
And I have learned
That even landlocked lovers yearn
For the sea like navy men
'Cause now we say goodnight
From our own separate sides
Like brothers on a hotel bed
the end.
e p i l o g u e GHOST >> indigo girls Kyle comes home. But nothing you've held onto for so long is so easily set free. This... this has been essence of his life, these past three years. But Kyle knows the reasons, now; knows the how and the why, and now all that's left to do is let go. And maybe one day, he will.
There's a letter on the desktop
That I dug out of a drawer
The last truce we ever came to
In our adolescent war
And I start to feel the fever
From the warm air through the screen
You come regular like seasons
Shadowing my dreams
And the Mississippi's mighty
But it starts in Minnesota
At a place that you could walk across
With five steps down
And I guess that's how you started
Like a pinprick to my heart
But at this point you rush right through me
And I start to drown
And there's not enough room
In this world for my pain
Signals cross and love gets lost
And time passed makes it plain
Of all my demon spirits
I need you the most
I'm in love with your ghost
I'm in love with your ghost
Dark and dangerous like a secret
That gets whispered in a hush
(don't tell a soul)
When I wake the things I dreamt about you
Last night make me blush
(don't tell a soul)
And you kiss me like a lover
Then you sting me like a viper
I go follow to the river
Play your memory like a piper
And I feel it like a sickness
How this love is killing me
I'd walk into the fingers
Of your fire willingly
And dance the edge of sanity
I've never been this close
In love with your ghost
Unknowing captor
You never know how much you
Pierce my spirit
But I can't touch you
Can you hear it?
A cry to be free
Oh, I'm forever under lock and key
As you pass through me
...
And my bitter pill to swallow
Is the silence that I keep
It poisons me, I can't swim free
The river is too deep
Though I'm baptized by your touch
I am no worse at most
In love with your ghost
(You are shadowing my dreams)
In love with your ghost
In love with your ghost
In love with your ghost
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You're All I Have
Last Day of Magic
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Everybody Knows
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There's No "I" in Team
I'll Keep Your Memory Vague
Jumper
I Swallowed Hard, Like I Understood
Brothers on a Hotel Bed
Ghost
Arcade Fire
Tiger Army
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