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.... Can't anyone appreciate what I'm doing...?
I know I'm a replica. I didn't ask to be Asch's replica. I was created. I wasn't born. That alone is Master Van and Dist's fault. It's anything but mine. Yeah so what, fomicry might be considered a sin and yeah, Jade created it, but that doesn't mean... that doesn't mean...!
I know I destroyed Akzeriuth and I know I can't change the past. I'm doing all I can to make up for that. I murdered people all because I blindly followed Master Van and couldn't think for myself. I know that! That's why I decided to change and cutting my hair was a symbol of that.
And yeah, Asch never accepted me and I wanted to give back his life. That's why I reunited him with his family... the family I took away from him without knowing. That's why... I wanted to die. Not only to make up for Akzeriuth, but so Asch could return to the life he rightly deserved.
And after the Tower of Hod, after I tried to sacrifice myself with all those replicas, I knew then I didn't want to die. That I wanted to live this life that Asch gave me. So I wanted to embrace this life. And by the time I realized that, it was too late. My fonons were separating and I would eventually die.
And even until the end, I had to fight Asch, to prove myself! That I'm something more than just a replica. That I'm something more! Why can't anyone see how much I've changed and all that I've done!? I'm living this life that Asch gave me! I appreciate it. That's why... knowing that back in Auldrant that he's gone, I live for US! I'd do anything for him. Not because I know that he's gone, but because I love him. Nothing... and NO ONE CAN CHANGE THAT!
Now that the stupid original Ion has show up along with that female God General, they keep calling me trash and a useless replica. I AM NOT USELESS. YOU HEAR ME!? I. AM. NOT. TRASH. I. AM. NOT. USELESS. Stop saying those things like you know me... like you know what I've gone and been though...
Just stop... because you know nothing! You don't know anything at all!!!!