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shanshu_angel in not_fading_away

Battered Xander.

May 15, 2006 19:55

The conversation with Giles was upsetting....and that was for me and I didn't even hear most of his words, except when he was yelling. It wasn't like Giles to yell at Buffy. She had earned more then that and didn't need him, any watcher or even the Council anymore. She was taking the news worse then I was, but was doing the chin-up thing that she ( Read more... )

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angelbuffy May 21 2006, 16:21:53 UTC

When I hung up the phone with Giles, I dind't really know what reaction I should have made in front of Angel. I didn't know how much he had heard, but I did know that he heard a lot of it. Maybe calling GIles wasn't the best idea in the books, maybe I should have waited until Angel was out of the room so he couldn't see what my reaction was in all of this. I couldn't believe that GIles said that, but on another level, I could. It was true, when I had decided to come here it was because I wasn't on Angel's side, but in lieu of certain events, I ended up feeling like I really might have been neglecting something that Giles, the scoobies and I worked so hard to create ( ... )

powerless_scoob May 21 2006, 16:51:30 UTC

"Xander what happened?"Now there was a loaded question, and one that I would have been happy to answer immediately if three very big things weren't bothering me...the first being that the demon responsible for all of this was standing right next to Buffy and had been kissing her when I walked in, the second being that I had been slugged over the head, and the third...the third was too awful to talk about and I hadn't even reported it to Giles yet ( ... )

shanshu_angel May 21 2006, 17:01:55 UTC

The kiss had been magical and somehow, had made me stronger. I was ready to fight. I was ready, and I wanted to kiss her again, because I felt invigorated and stupid for ever having left her in the first place.

Then, Xander walked in.

"Xander what happened?"

"We were so careless. So careless..."

I backed away from Buffy, even though being close to her right now, was everything to me. I knew what being careless meant. I had been careless, reckless and had wrought these demons on the Earth, and I knew what Xander meant, and there were deaths, more deaths that could be attributed directly to me and my actions.

"That's right, Angel, you should back away, considering hundreds of dead humans are all on your hands and now, two dead slayers are also on your hands."

I looked at Buffy. I could barely face her and this was minutes after kissing her so sweetly. Two slayers, two of the new slayers had been sent here by Giles and now they were dead. I put my head down, not wanting to hear any of this, as Xander explained things.

"I picked up ( ... )

angelbuffy May 26 2006, 18:48:08 UTC

I felt weak in the knees, and even though the blood that was regenerating in my system was getting stronger, I felt weak from what I had just heard. Giles had just gotten off the phone with me, and he had caved in with letting a couple slayers and Xander come down to help.

...and from what I had just heard from a badly injured Xander, they were both dead. Dealing with death is never easy, I've known this all my life... and especially when I first started being a slayer. There were a lot of things that I had learned to cope with, and one of them was the fact that it was impossible to save everyone. The difference here was that instead of going to find the slayers, and fighting like I should have been, I was here, kissing Angel. I wanted to know more about this without letting any more emotion seep through me at the moment. I was feeling so much here, especially since the battle that was going to take place was nothing short of easy.

"I picked up Maria and Anke at LAX, and this was after almost running over Spike and Faith ( ... )

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