Don't read unless you are prepared to assume a whole bunch of things that arent actually true.
Thank you. You made me feel beautiful and wanted. Later, when I said I liked you, you felt guilty, but you shouldn't have. I knew you didnt like me romantically, but you did care about me as a person, and so I felt wonderful. I feel like you did it for me, not for you, although it really was just a matter of circumstances. But you didnt hurt me in the least bit. I am grateful to you for being so gentle and kind to me and putting up with my oh so simple confused emotions that you knew I would have. You are a gentleman. Thank you.
As for you. You used me. I may have felt in control but I wasnt. I was stupid enough to put myself in a vulnerable position, and you knew it. You teased me so bad and you knew exactly how to get me to go where I both wanted to and where I didnt want to go. But you didnt give a shit about me. It was all for you. I feel like crap because of you. I feel embarrassed and ashamed and hurt all at the same time. But mostly I just feel really stupid, because I knew you didnt like me at all, not even as a friend. What was I thinking?
As for you. You used me. I may have felt in control but I wasnt. I was stupid enough to put myself in a vulnerable position, and you knew it. You teased me so bad and you knew exactly how to get me to go where I both wanted to and where I didnt want to go. But you didnt give a shit about me. It was all for you. I feel like crap because of you. I feel embarrassed and ashamed and hurt all at the same time. But mostly I just feel really stupid, because I knew you didnt like me at all, not even as a friend. What was I thinking?