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[notalltogether]

you said that all you had to say was that i wasnt the only one that felt that way. do you feel that way? if so tell me your story.

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[anonymous]

i feel like my 'friends' only want me when there's no one else available to hang out with. i feel like nobody ever gets excited to talk to me or be around me. i guess that may be because i act a little depressing, but the reason i act depressing is because of that fact up there. so it's like i'm trapped in an endless cycle.

[notalltogether]

yeah i know the story. "and the cycle repeats". to quote myself (the previous quote was from a killswitch engage song) "people don't care for people like me, its a self-detrifying circle. they dont care, which in turn causes me to be like this, which in turn causes them to want to care even less, which in turn makes this worse, which... and i think we're about 7 cycles down the line." you should go read that post, its good rantings, its from mar. 31st and the title is "your words are deadly weapons, killing me, destroying me". i've found that there is usually at least one person that cares. in my case i have the other person that posts, and then i have the person concept 2 alludes to. those two people make me feel loved when i talk with them, and they are my saving grace.