supposed to be-- one-shot
Title: Supposed to Be
Rating: M
Pairing: Onew/Sandeul
Summary: Jinki is Onew and Junghwan becomes Sandeul. Written with the prompt: chipmunk cheeks and heavenly voices.
Disclaimer: Only own the plot.
Author's note: Written for hakkais_shadow over at the kpopvalentines comm! Established Jinki/Junghwan, but I still broke them in the end T.T
Jinki likes times like this one. His boyfriend is lying comfortably on his stomach, their fingers threaded together as he absentmindedly hums the tune of "Somewhere Over the Rainbow".
"When are you leaving again?" and his voice is so soft Jinki wouldn't have heard it if he hadn't been listening so closely to his song.
"What do you mean?"
"When are you leaving to become Onew again?" Junghwan asks, turning to face his boyfriend.
"Tomorrow," and Jinki closes the small gap left between them, brushing their lips together lightly. "You said just now you had something to tell me."
"I did, didn't I." There's a furrowing of eyebrows on his adorably chubby face and Jinki resists the urge to pinch those cheeks again; he knows his boyfriend hates it when he does that. "Stop staring at my cheeks hyung, they're hideous."
He chuckles quietly. "How many times do I have to tell you Junghwan, your cheeks are part of you, and I love you."
"But not my cheeks," and there's that sullen pout again as he sits up, causing Jinki to whine slightly at the loss of warmth. "I was going to say hyung, that I'm finally going to be part of a boy band!"
Jinki feels a strange ache at the news but smiles anyway. "Is that so?"
"Yup! Training starts tomorrow too, so that means I won't be able to see you much either," and he's looking sadly at their entwined fingers, drawing lazy circles on his hyung's palm. Jinki lifts his head so that his eyes meet his and kisses him again.
They don't say another word for the rest of the night apart from the ocassional "Faster!" and "God I'm going to-"
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Jinki doesn't see Junghwan again for the next six months.
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He's backstage prepping himself and the rest of the band for their next stage when someone barges into their dressing room. His eyes are wide open, his mouth agape as he bows repeatedly, "Sorry, oh my goodness I'm so sorry" and they only manage awkward smiles as the sandy brown haired boy clears his throat once before backing out of the room slowly.
"B1A4 right?" he hears Jonghyun. "I think your dressing room is somewhere in that direction."
"Right- thank you- sorry- sunbae-nim."
He's bowing and turning to leave when another boy yanks the door open and grips him firmly by the wrist. "Hyung! What are you-"
Jinki feels his eyes opening in surprise as the darker brown haired boy bows to the boys in the room, his face growing redder by the second. Isn't that...
"Junghwan," he breathes out lightly and feels himself going faint.
"Jin- Onew sshi," but Jinki doesn't like the way that name rolls off his tongue so foreignly. He really just wants to gather the boy in his arms and kiss away the furrow in his eyebrows and then maybe kiss him some more. He feels a pang in his chest as he watches him tighten his grip on the other boy's wrist. "Jinyoung hyung, we really should go."
Jinki doesn't say anything more except to bow to them as they leave the dressing room, the both of them locking gazes before Junghwan turns away. "So that's the leader Jinyoung and the lead vocal Sandeul right?" He wants to scream and shout and tell them that no that boy is not Sandeul, he's Junghwan and is he's fucking beautiful (I know) and so damn sexy and mine for fuck's sake so stop looking at them him the way you are right now. But he instead chooses to clear his throat and continue with his pre-performance-prep-talk, even as images of the now too-skinny boy fill his mind.
It scares him that he can't seem to remember his Junghwan anymore.
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It wasn't supposed to end up like this. In Jinki's mind, they would kiss slow and languidly, him whispering IloveyouIloveyouIloveyou over and over again as their tongues danced to a beat only they knew. In Jinki's mind, they would break away and Junghwan would promise to stay with him forever and ever, eyes shining bright, watching him intently without breaking their gaze.
It wasn't supposed to be like this.
They're in the restroom in B1A4's dressing room, and it's so desperate and needy that Jinki loses all sense of time as his hands grip the younger boy's waist hard enough to bruise.
"Jinki hyung," he hears and the moan that follows sends Jinki straight to the depths of oblivion. This had to be the most beautiful voice in the world, and he wanted to tell Junghwan how much he loves his voice, how much he loves when he moans only for me, how he misses those cheeks, how he's too skinny now and how he looks so tired. But all he manages is a choked "Junghwan" instead.
I love you, he tries to say through the gaze they exchange when they pause to catch their breath, the younger boy looking straight at him. I've missed you, I need you. Stay with me.
But Junghwan rushes in and kisses him anyway, and they don't say another word apart from the ocassional "Faster!" and "God I'm going to-"
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They don't have a happy ending in this story.
(Because Jinki is Onew who is supposed to love Kibum and Junghwan is Sandeul who is supposed to love Sunwoo; they decide that it's better kept that way.)