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Ok, so today i stayed home from school cause i have a cold and i feel like shit. I watched Just Married, Santa Claus 2, Uptown Girls, and the Goonies. Goood movie day.
any way.. i thought about alot. Thats been on my mind lately.. and its that im loosing some of my best friends. Let alone the people ive already lost during the corse of last year, the summer and now this year... but now the people that im close with i feel so far apart from them. I talked to chrissy about it the other night.. i dont feel like belong with u guys anymore.. like noone wants me there anymore and its not a good feeling, like yea we still hang out, but not as much, and not as a group.. even some days i dont talk even to my best friends, rather im not around them, or we just sit there and dont talk, and it feels weird, like weve all gotton so0 close and we do have the best times together and u have to admit that we never stop laughing, and i really thing we take each other for granite and now its really starting to show..yeah there is drama n ppl do get pissed off, but we get over it,and move on.. but were all supposed to be best friends, were all going threw the same high school expeirence together, differnt problems or not, were still ALL in this TOGETHER, and if u think about it best friends are like ur family, u spend more time with them in school and out of school then u do at home with ur own family, we need to learn to get along.. you wouldnt want your sister talking shit about u to ur other sister and then have both sisters turn against you do u? cuz thats EXACLTY how it is, if u really think about it, yeah some of us are closer then others, cuz theyve been together longer, but u also have to realize that as of rite now, its all of us... were all together and we have to stay together..and we have to learn to be there for eachother,and no im not saying that noones been there for everyone or w/e cuz i sure as hell kno who i can turn to wen i need something, or need advice or just to talk to get things off my chest... yeah friendships may come and go, but hold on to the ones that your not gonna regret later in life.. the ones with the girls who mean soooo much to you, when you say best friend(s) you should mean it, kinda like the word "i love you" NO ONE likes to get that word thrown around, and its the same thing with the best friend thing.. dont throw it around, let it mean something, Best friends are supposed to the girls/guys w/e they are, they you have the best times with, that YOU DO FIGHT WITH but make up and everythings good again, that u can trust with anything, that you can stay up till 3 in the morning just laughing your asses of at stupid things, that you can be serious with in times that u need to be serious, that if somethings bothering u, u can call them up and just talk, and then at the end of the conversation it makes u feel good to kno that u have someone to trust and to hold on to, and kno, that they are always there for you, and thats the best thing about having best friends...esp more than one.. being in a group of best friends doesnt give u the right to talk shit bout them when their not there or n e thing for a matter of fact, being in a group of best friends means u have 9 people who help you with n e thing, do n e thing for you. its the ppl who u can call up crying and they will come and get you.. its the people who u can call up drunk or high or scared at a party or anything and they will help you or come and get you, or take the beer out of ur hand cuz uve had to much, or care about if ur planning on hurting ur self, its just the people who care. and thats the bottom line.
im done.. that was just on my mind lately
and i kno who are my best friends. think about it
dont go throwing that word around, say it if u mean it.
i love my girls.. and you KNOW who you are. thanx for everything..
comment if u love me <3