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People are so fucking selfish. WHY THE HELL ARE YOU ALL SO SELFISH? Jesus Christ. Stop being so fucking self absorbed.
I know I let people treat me like shit. I don't know why I do. Maybe I shouldn't take things so personally. Maybe I shouldn't analyze things so much. Maybe I should just let it slide when my "best friends" don't wish me Happy Birthday anymore when I go out of my way to get all my friends something for their's. OR MAYBE I'M RIGHT AND EVERYONE ELSE IS JUST AN ASSHOLE. Yeah.
I wonder what respect feels like.
Here I am. Push me down, take my money, and kick me in the face. That's what I'm here for. Your amusement. Your doorstep. I have no feelings. No really. IT'S OKAY.
Hoooooly fuck I'm just really tired of letting people walk all over me. So why don't I ever do anything? For fear of ending up alone I guess...
God. I guess I expect too much out of people. Do I? I mean really, am I asking too much? I guess just being generally nice really is too much to ask these days.
Don't worry, you'll forget all about me when I'm gone anyways. If you haven't already.
That was really just for me. I don't care if you read it or what you think about it.
Shit. Feelings don't belong here! Silly me, what was I thinking?! No one cares how I feel anyways. All that matters, is that everyone pisses me off all the time and I let people take advantage of me and most of my friends are selfish and don't SEEM to appreciate me aaaaaaand I fake happiness 97% of the time. The other 3% I'm either in Birmingham or I'm around Victor.
I mean really...I'm easy to please. Really easy. So why am I so goddamn unhappy all the time? Now that's a thinker.
Bah. I went and saw The Manchurian Candidate with Rachel today because I'm a good friend and she reeaaally wanted to see it, even though she knew I really didn't want to. It was okay. It's kinda hard to follow and it's long.
I had several dreams about Victor last night. The kind of dreams that make you not want to wake up. I hate those.
I start school in a week. I don't like college. I have to go to work tomorrow.
//edit// My dad just called me unamerican because I didn't want to watch the Olympics. I'm sure there's something wrong with that but I'm also sure I don't care.