i needa go to sleep. it's not even late. i just need to not be awake anymore ( Read more... )

lack of productivity becomes me ( Read more... )

left school early today to sleep off my staying awake until 4 in the morning ( Read more... )

there is something so off. nothing is making sense and its all caving in around me and i feel the sting of my shooting myself in the foot and there is little i can do about it. there is such a vast difference between reality and perception but such a fine line separating them, and sometimes people just decide to fuck themselves over by not ( Read more... )

you know that something is wrong when you feel that you've succeeded when nobody wants you.

if i had a time machine, and could do one thing, i'd take back every nice thing i've ever done for anyone.
wouldn't you?

break from college applications. been working for 20 minutes. i think i deserve it ( Read more... )

stayed home again--except to go to my father's girlfriend's to help him set up his new laptop. it's just too cold out, and i can't bring myself to to leave my house right now, no matter how badly i want to. i can't wait to not have to worry about applications, or grades, or anything at all. i think i'm gonna go to paris in februrary to get away ( Read more... )

kathryn made me sneakers for my birthday--it was a few months ago but she's slow. i can't hold it against her though, she did just give me the fuckin best bday present. and i needed new sneakers anyway.

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this is one of those nights. the nights where you just wish everything was different and that you could live the night over again and change everything from waxing didactical to a friend to writing a shitty college application essay that you know you're just gonna have to do again. i didn't bother leaving my house tonight, other than to ( Read more... )

8 hours until i'm leaving the house to go to school ( Read more... )