A Thought .. ♥
Within the moments that your mind can't help but wander you experience the greatest moments of regret. It's within these moments that you rethink the actions taken in the past, those poor decisions you made and how you could benefit from changing those choices. Those mistakes can be related to anything from the work habits you developed to a past love affair or even words spoken when you might have held your tongue. None the less these feelings of regret are a powerful emotion of loss, a feeling that you cheated yourself. The fact is people need to realize and accept that mistakes are made for a reason, and for all those things you lost you gained just as much. Even those who may seem to achieve perfection once were flawed. From these mistakes we gain valuable experiences. The problem with people is that we do not accept failure. Failure is entirely unacceptable. Once you can learn to accept these failures, you can finally move on, you can grow. You can achieve that infinite potential you hold, and be closer to satisfaction, to happiness. There's times when your tears are a waste, and you just have to laugh at yourself. It's those times you should see as only memories, not nightmares. Did you ever notice how events are connected? People say everything happens for a reason...maybe they're right. Imagine you had been riding your bike as a child, and had gotten lost. If you had never fallen and scraped you knee, that block parent would never have come to help you, and you might not have ended up finding your way home. Maybe if I had never met those that have hurt me, I could have saved myself some heartache, but I might never have learned to cope with rejection, with loss. I may never have learned to have faith that people can change; I may never have learned persistence. For everything I supposedly lost, I gained just as much. The reason I've kept up the chase is really because I need to know if things can change, if I can change. Most of all I need to know if rejected again, will my heart survive? I need to know if it will ever get any easier. It's the reason a child begs relentlessly, the reason the little take on the big, the reason a person prays to something that isn't tangible; faith. The belief that one day we will triumph. The hope that today might just be brighter than the rest. It's the reason we don't stop living, we don't stop fighting, and the reason we should never stop.
[June 14, 2005]